Careful [lesbian story]

Chapter Eighteen

My eyelids closed gently and my eyes rolled back in pleasure. A small groan escaped Ren's lips as she was getting rather aroused as well. Today I went over to Ren's just to say hello, not thinking it would get this steamy. We were lying on her bed, our mouths and legs intertwined and she was getting rather touchy. When things got too hot I had to stop her. Moral reasons, of course, we still weren't together, and I didn't want to be another trophy on her shelf.
She groaned, this time not from pleasure, rather the opposite.
"How much longer are you going to torture me, T?" she asked, sliding off of me and to the other side of the bed.
"Just long enough to keep myself entertained," I smirked.
"Oh, this is what you like? To see me with blue balls all the time?"
A blush crept to my cheeks and I held back a laugh, "You don't have any balls, Ren,"
"Not like you would know," she murmured.
I heard it and leaned over to her, connecting my lips to hers. I kept my mouth still for just a moment and then she hungrily took over, filling the kiss with desire and need. I pulled back once again, and she could hardly hide her frustration.
"All you have to do is make us official," I said, the thought secretly giving me butterflies.
"Well we can't always get what we want,"
"Guess your balls will stay blue then," I teased. She tossed her arm over her eyes and groaned once again. I lifted myself off the bed and grabbed my bag.
"Where are you going?" she asked.
"Class. I'm late now," I tossed the door open and turned to wave.
"Bye T,"
Then I was off.

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Since Christmas ended all anyone could talk about was the New Years Eve parties that would take place on campus. G and I had talked about going to a few, but I wasn't sure where I'd end up. I definitely wanted to see Ren that night, before the year was up, and I also didn't want to party hop. Camden could have something planned. I call him on my way to class.

"Yellow," he greeted.
"Camden,"
"Yes?"
"What are you doing on New Year's?"
"Going down to the fields,"
"Is there a party down there?"
"Every year, it's supposed to be legendary,"
"Mind if I join?"
"Not at all, you can join me anywhere Taryn," he said suggestively.
I laughed, "Slow down there big boy,"
"I'll see you later T,"
"Bye,"

I hit the end button and continued on to class.
Once it ended I went straight to my dorm to discuss plans with G.

"Camden?" she asked.
"yes, do you have a problem with that?"
"no, not at all, should be fun,"
"very. what are you going to wear,"
"oh who knows, something short,"
"it's freezing,"
"hoeing around doesn't stop for the weather,"
I scoffed in disbelief, "you have a boyfriend,"
"that is true," she noted, "but what about you? what do you have?"
my mood shifted immediately.
"I don't know,"
"It's not right for her to keep you waiting like this,"
"She was hurt last time she got serious with a girl," I defended Ren.
"That was in high-school Taryn, when will she stop moping around about it? We're grown up now, time for her to make some grown up decisions,"
I was a little shocked, but I guess G was right, I mean it was a long time ago, and she even talked to Keely, what was holding her back?
I got quiet.
"I didn't mean to upset you," G said, showing slight pity in her voice. "Look, maybe she'll say something on New Year's, ask her to come to the party,"
"okay," I replied.
"let's go get Chinese, I'll pay," she offered.
I nodded and stood up from the from where I was staring up at her on the futon. We walked side by side out of the dorm room.

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I added one more sweep of blush to my cheeks and stepped back. I looked myself up and down, a black tank top that's tucked into black leather pants, and silver flats. If it were myself choosing my outfit for tonight, it would be a warmer choice, but G insisted. My cleavage is "slight, but still enough to catch eyes", as G put it. My outfit is the last thing I care about, to be honest. These past few days have been heated make-out sessions with Ren and then the same awkward conversation about needing more. Tonight was the night, though, it had to be. No more waiting around, I want more and if Ren can't give it to me, I'll find it somewhere else.
G and I walked out of our dorm, she was dressed in the shortest dress you may have ever seen. It was sleek and black, she wore bright red heels to go with, and her ginger hair was straightened  so slick she could probably cut someone with it.
"You ready for this?" she asked as we turned corners to the elevator.
"Ready as I'll ever be," I said with a nervous chuckle. We hopped on the elevator and pressed the bottom floor button. We walked out and there was a few people drinking a little and watching the new years eve special on the TV. G and I walked past them and out the door of our dormitory.

Once we made it to the field Camden greeted us and handed me a drink. G hugged me and then pulled away, still holding onto my shoulders. "Go get 'em, tiger," she said, looking me straight in the eyes. I gave a nervous chuckle and she left to find her boyfriend. Camden rejoined me at my side and began to talk.
"Did you invite Ren?" he asked.
"Maybe" I replied.
"Will you be crushed if it doesn't happen tonight?"
"I have no idea, but we won't do any more crazy elaborate paint jobs if she doesn't make her move" I laughed, he laughed with me and took a sip of his drink, "True, I couldn't wake up the next morning,"
I nodded and lowkey looked around the field for Ren.
"Why are you leaving it all up to her?" he asked.
"What do you mean?" I asked him back.
"Like, you're leaving it all up to her to make a move and ask you to be her girlfriend, why don't you ask her? If you hit her with the question and demand an answer on the spot, you'll get her true answer. No more 'thinking' , no more waiting. If she wants you, she'll have to decide right then,"
I debated on this for a second, he was right. If I asked her and she has nowhere to run, she can't push it away.
"Doesn't that make me seem desperate?" I asked.
"T, you are desperate,"
I laughed and hit him in the arm.
"Whatever," I said, and rolled my eyes, still smiling.
"Time to make your move," He said, looking at something across the field.
I looked over and sure enough, Ren had shown up. She looked incredible. She wore a light-weight cream colored sweater that ended right at her flat waist line. The denim skinny jeans she was wearing hugged her body in all the right places, and her black boots gave her a little more height than she really had. She was so beautiful. I suddenly felt incredibly foolish for my choice (or rather, G's choice) of outfit. She grabbed a drink and made her way over to me and Cam. It became difficult to breathe all the sudden and my skin felt very hot even in this freezing weather. Cam looked over to me, "Oh no, kid. You better not freak out now, this is your chance," He hit my hand with my drink, "Take a gulp, get that liquid courage if you have none of your own at all,"
I tore my gaze away from her and looked at him, then at my drink, and took a large gulp from the red cup. It was only some cheap beer, but it was better than nothing. I handed him my cup and took a few steps forward in her direction.
She finally hit us and she looked at me and smiled and then looked at Camden and told him hi and he quickly made his way out.
"Hey Taryn," she said, her plump lips looking so wonderful with my name coming from them.
"Hi," I replied.
"Do you think we could go somewhere?" she asked.
"I don't think I've had enough drinks to slip out with anyone just yet," I said jokingly.
"Shut up," she laughed.
I nodded my head, becoming more serious, she led me off to the bleachers and we walked all the way to the top until we were beside the big box where they make the game announcements. She tried the handle and it was locked. She pulled out a bobby pin and began picking at the handle.
"Why am I not surprised?" I said as I watched her pick the lock.
After a few seconds, she turned the knob and the door swung open slowly.
"Just like the night we met," she said as we walked in. I looked around the booth and it was dark, but the gleam from the giant lights on the field was shining through the plastic windows. It was just enough light for me to see the lines in her beautifully sculpted face. I turned and looked out the large window on to the field. There was maybe 1,000 people drinking, laughing, and just having a good time. And here i was, sitting in a commentators booth with the most beautiful girl ive ever met. I thought for a moment about what cam told me, I could just do it. I could ask her out and get an answer and that would be the end of all confusion. I looked into her beautiful eyes and saw them flicker down to my lips and back to my eyes.
"Ren..." I said hesitantly, but right after her name came out of my mouth her lips crashed into mine. I kissed back, our lips moving in perfect time with each other's. Her tongue glided over my bottom lip sending waves through my body. I wanted it to go on forever, her hands found their way to my hips and I choked down a moan. I gently pushed her chest so she would stop and she did.
"I want you," she whispered, her forehead touching mine and her hands still on my hips.
"I want you too," our lips were nearly touching again.
"no," she said quickly, "I want you.. to be mine," she said after a pause.
I stepped back in total shock.
"are you serious?" I asked.
"of course, I'm willing to try this out, for you. I just, I can't live not knowing anymore," she said, looking down at her feet, I could tell she was nervous. I started laughing. Uncontrollable laughter that made my stomach hurt. She looked at me like I was insane.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry " I said, in between laughs. She did not look impressed. I stopped laughing, "it's just, I've done so much and I've wanted this for so long and now like, it's happening," I said, in disbelief once again.
"so does that mean you'll be mine?" she asked, stepping closer to me.
"I wouldn't dream of anything else but that," I said and wrapped my arms around her neck, meeting our lips together for another kiss. but this time it felt different, there was so much more there, an entire life to live there, in that one kiss. I got lost in it and soon enough the sound of college students chanting "5!4!3!2!" filled the booth but i didn't care about any fireworks when I had everything I wanted right in front of me.