Careful [lesbian story]

Chapter Eight

"OH MY SHIT TARYN"
"Please calm down"
"CALM DOWN?" G shouted, "Are you on something ? You kissed ! You fucking kissed, oh my god this is the greatest. I don't know what to do with myself. What does this all mean?"
"Stop" I beg,

I'm not sure what to say, or what it all means, when we kissed I almost exploded. She made me weak. But I was also drunk. Very drunk. But can I really blame the drinks? I wanted to kiss her. I kissed back for a good five minutes. I ended up pulling away and she walked me out. Now it's the morning after and G walked in.

"Well, at least tell me what happened."
I thought about it.
"We were in the basement and she made me some drinks and we played pool and after I won, she kissed me."
I said, feeling it all over again.
"How was it."
"Really great-" I cut off,
"Oh my god Taryn! You're so into her!"
G said, getting more and more excited.
"No I'm not. I'm not even gay, remember?"
G frowned
"Taryn, this happens way to often. if you feel good with her, then that's nothing to be ashamed about."
"I'm not ashamed, I support the gays! I'm just not one of them !" I got up to walk out.
"Taryn... I'm sor-"

I slammed the door and walked down the dorm hall. I exited through the doors and began wandering around campus. I knew where most of the stuff was around campus but I needed to find something new.

I started walking down the path to the fountain when I tripped.
"Fuck."
"Need a hand?"
I looked up and Camden was offering to help me up.
"Yeah. Thanks."
I grabbed his hand and he pulled.
"You seem pretty pissed off."
I laughed
"Yeah. Pretty much."
"Care to walk?"
"That's what I was doing anyway."
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"Want to tell me what happened?" He asked me after lighting my cigarette.
I took In another drag of my cigarette, we were back down a nature trail.
I breathed out the smoke in a sigh.
"My roommate thinks I'm gay."
"Are you?"
"No. Well.. no. Obviously not."
"Why does she think that?"
I looked down and sighed again.
"Because I kissed this girl, well she kissed me, but I kissed back. and it's obvious she's into me, but I'm not gay you know? I don't have anything against them, but I've been with guys my whole life and I'm not gay."
"It'd be fine if you were"
"I know, but I'm not!"
I was getting irritated with him at this point.
"Woah , calm down, it's cool if you are and its cool if you're not."
"Yeah." I put out my cigarette. "I'm gonna go."
"Let me walk you back."
"K"

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I waved Camden off and proceeded to unlock my dorm room, it's empty.
Not of items but of people, guess G decided to go somewhere.
I opened a pack of ramen and sat on my bed and continued to think.
Am I gay? Is it possible? If I was, the whole student body would be okay with it apparently.

I've only ever been with boys. I lost my virginity to a boy. Plus, aren't you supposed to figure this kind of thing out during puberty? When I went through puberty I didn't like anybody anyway.

So what's happening to me?
It was just a stupid kiss anyway, like it means anything anyhow. And that's what it means, nothing. People get drunk and kiss all the time. But the kiss with Ren sobered me up quick.

"Ugh" I groaned as my microwave beeped, notifying me of my ramen being done. I quickly fixed it and sat on the couch in our small dorm and started watching the kardashians and eating.

I yawned and looked over towards the the clock and noticed it was 9:30. I threw away my styrofoam bowl and quickly changed in to my Christmas sweatpants. Because I celebrate all year round. I turned on the fan and laid in bed and drifted to sleep.
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EHH EHH EHH EHH...
"Jesus Christ" I rolled over and squinted due to the light rolling in, 9:45, time to get ready for class.
I jumped out of bed and looked around and G still wasnt home. Did i really upset her that much?

I put on jeans and a low cut tank and some Sandals, I grabbed my tote and headed to the coffee shop.

"One coffee, 1 cream 2 sugars"
"Sure thing, name?"
"Taryn."
I gave the boy my card and went to the other end of the counter to wait.
"Taryn?" The barista yelled
"Right here."
I grabbed my coffee and went on my way.

My first and only class for today was advanced trigonometry.
I walked in and took my seat in the middle of the big classroom.
It was huge actually, lots of kids, and a very old man for a professor.
I opened my journal and pen and started to doodle while he went over "class rules" and such when the door opened. Without looking I heard,

"Ren, so nice of you to join us."