"I-it's not your fault darling. I'll be okay, stop crying" He said as I held his bloody hands and pinned that to my cheeks as my tears comes streaming down my face non stop.
No this has to be a dream, this isn't happening. I can't loose him, I can't. Not him too.
"No, if I just listened to you and to dad any of these wouldn't be happening! Papa would have been alive if not for me! I'm sorry... I'm sorry please w-wag mo din akong iwan! I'm begging you.."
" Please stop saying that, Y-you don't have anything to do with this. It's j-just an accident. I'm not blaming you... your Papa wouldn't be happy seeing you cry and my heart is aching whenever I see you cry so baby please stop... don't blame yourself please.. "
He reach for my face and tried to wipe off my tears. He looks so weak but still manages to smile that made me so emotional because I can't do anything to stop him from suffering. I can see how he struggle for his life. This is all my fault! I'm so stupid
" I love you L-luck... Take care" his hand slowly dropping is the next thing that happened.
The machine started to beep so loud that I couldn't take everything that's happening in front of me.
I fell to the cold ground while the people gathered around him and i can't move an inch when a realization hits me hard in the face
No no no.... NOOOOOO!
"Noooo!" I was awoken by my own scream and I realized that it was just a dream.
I was panting really hard while I am sobbing like a kid. I am shaking and I'm struggling to breathe.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry! Kasalanan ko yun! Everything was all because of me!" paulit ulit kong sambit habang nanginginig at hinahabol ang aking hininga.
Napanaginipan ko nanaman ang aksidenteng yun. Ramdam na ramdam ko parin ung bawat pag piga sa puso ko habang nandoon ako sa sitwasyon na yun.
Namimiss ko na sila. Namimiss ko na sya... Gusto ko silang makita at mayakap kahit ilang segundo lang...
Ilang minuto ang lumipas at kumalma na ang aking buong sistema. Tumayo ako sa aking kama at naglakad patungo sa malaking salamin at tiningnan ang aking sarili.
Namamaga ang mga mata ko at sobrang nakaka awa ang itsura ko.
Hayyy...
Tumunog ang alarm ko at bigla kong naalala na may pasok ako ngayon kaya nag dalwang isip pa ako kung papasok pa ba ako o hindi na muna.
Naisip ko na kung mananatili ako dito sa bahay ay magmumukmok lang ako at iiyak dahil sa panaginip ko na hindi ko alam kung hanggang kailan ako gagambalain... Karma ko siguro ang lahat ng ito....
Naligo na ako at nag ayos para pumasok. Pagka baba ko ay nakita ako ng mga kapatid ko at batid sa kanilang mga mukha ang pag aalala kaya naman ngumiti nalang ako at nagpaalam na uuna na. Inaya pa nila ako na kumain na muna pero tumanggi nalang ako at dumiretsyo na pag pasok sa school.
Naglakad nalang ako dahil gusto ko munang pahupain kahit kaunti ung pamamaga ng mata ko para naman hindi na ito gaano kalala mamaya.
Dire diretso lang ako sa paglakad at hindi ko napansin na may sasakyan na palang bumubusina sa gilid ko dahil malapit na ko sa kalsada.
Sobrang dami kong naiisip at nararamdaman kaya hindi ko namamalayan na nawawala nanaman ako sa sarili ko.
Biglang sumagi sa isip ko yung mga nangyari kagabi sa party. May humintong sasakyan sa tabi ko kagabi habang naglalakad ako palabas sa subdivision nila Jason. Nagulat ako nung makita ko kung sino yung nagmamaneho at nag alok na ihahatid ako pauwi.
BINABASA MO ANG
Count On Me: The Luck
No FicciónFourienn Luck Cruz, an average college girl whose life became extremely rock bottom after she looses herself to the weight of every burden in her life that challenges her whole being. In just a snap of the finger, her almost perfect life became com...
