I woke up to dad thumping about getting ready for work at 5:30 in the morning. I laid in my bed feeling like shit I was hurting all over, this defiantly was one of the worst beatings I've ever had, two more years, two years till I can get away from this hell hole and them I'll never have to see them again. I heard the front door open then close again I got out of bed and went to run a cold bath to help the bruises go down a bit; turning the tap on I turned and looked in the mirror. I was black and blue head to toe it seemed.
Getting out of the bath I looked again in the mirror, some of the bruising had gone down but I still looked like shit. I chucked my hair into a pony tail and put on a batman tee and some grey jeans. Heading out to the kitchen I made some toast and saw mum getting up and ready for work.
"See you" I called when mum put her coat on and left for work. In return I got a grunt out of her. I went to my room and picked my phone up and saw I had a text from Ryan
R- where are you?
Z- suspended haha ;p
R- great. I'll come to yours after school today then
Z- what ever.
R- k.
"Sup" I said seeing Ryan standing there
"Hi you ready to work on the project?"
"If I must"
"Come on its our last time together you've got to be happy about it" he smiled.
"Still don't mean I enjoy working with you"
"What ever let's just do this so I can leave"
"What's the rush?"
"I don't want to be here any longer than I have to" I moved out of the way and let him in. He headed upstairs to my room; I was surprised he still remembered where it was. I followed him upstairs and saw he had got everything out ready for us to work on our project.
"You're room is still the same"
"Yeah don't see why I would've changed it"
"I Dunno people change so..." I stared at him not sure of what to do. We started on our project working in silence unroll Ryan asked me if something actually did happen at Blake's
"Nothing fucking happened okay"
"Sure he gets every girl he wants do what makes you different, huh?"
"The fact not some easy whore and if he tried anything I'd sack him!"
"Sure you're not. Ha he could beat you in a fight so I doubt you'd be able to sack him"
"Oh yeah I'm such a whore I've never even kissed a guy!"
"Yeah don't blame them no guy wants to kiss another guy or even a girl who looks like one!"
"Fuck you Ryan. You use to be cool now you're a fucking stuck up overly cocky dick!"
"Cool really? Cause last I checked we weren't cool and when we got to high school I figured out that it was because of you now I have more friends and I'm popular now I can have any girl I want!"
"Well good for you, you can fuck who ever you want and sorry for holding you down all these years please forgive me. But you know what? At least I have true friends I can trust, who won't betray me or leave me to become popular" unlike you I thought "I'd much rather have few friends that I trust rather than be surrounded by a bunch if people who I don't fully trust"
"What makes you think I don't trust them?"
"You use to always say that you use to think it was stupid how people would surround themselves with people who they can't trust and might backstab them" Ryan stood in silence after that. I just went left my room and ran To the bathroom and chucked cold water on my face to calm me down then I went back to my room.
"Look I'm sorry I didn't mean it"
"What ever I don't care" we worked in silence again till Ryan once again broke it.
"What happened?"
"What do you mean what happened?"
"Your bruises? How'd you get them?"
"I got into a fight. How else would I get them?"
"Hmmm, Anyway we're practically done. I'll finish it off at home"
"Sure fine by me"
I moved back upstairs to my room and turned my iPod on and laid on my bed listening out for when mum and dad come home. I sat up and grabbed my note book and started writing.
I didn't mean to do this.
I never wanted to make you angry.
But why do you treat me as you do.
I cry to you.
I trust you but you just hit me and take me down.
I tried so hard only to fail.
I guess this is it this is the last you'll hear of me.
Sitting watching people go about.
Staring in silence hoping someone will see me.
See I need rescuing and try to help me.
I cry to you.
I trust you but you just hit me and take me down.
I tried so hard only to fail.
I guess this is it this is the last you'll hear of me.
Taking a deep breath it's too late.
I know now you don't care.
No one ever will.
They can't see that the truth is covered up by my pride.
I stare out my window.
Seeing my life before my eyes.
Waiting for the darkness to claim me.
I cried to you.
I trust you but you just hit me and take me down.
I tried so hard only to fail.
I guess this is it this is the last you'll hear of me.
Now you can be happy as I'm not here.
I shut my book quickly when I heard footsteps heading up the stairs. My door swung open and I saw mum standing there, probably disgusted at my music as usual.
"Turn that fucking shit off"
"Yes mum" she turned on her heels and left. I checked my phone and saw David had texted me.
D- hey
Z-hey
D- enjoy your day off? :p
Z- yup. Enjoy school?
D- no it was not the same with out you
Z- knew it.
D- got anyone to go to the dance with?
Z- na not yet
D- good mum is making me go so we are going together
Z- when did I agree to this
D- just now cause you love me
Z- fine
D- yay!
Z- loser
D- you know you love me
Z- yea yea
D- you know you care
I started to reply to that but texts kept coming through till he had finished the verse. That is one strange child.
