Lucissa one-shots

Troubled memories

𝟷𝟿𝟽𝟼, 𝐿𝑢𝑐𝑖𝑢𝑠 𝑀𝑎𝑙𝑓𝑜𝑦𝑠 𝑝𝑜𝑣

𝙒𝙖𝙧𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜: 𝙞𝙣𝙘𝙡𝙪𝙙𝙚𝙨 𝙙𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙝, 𝙗𝙡𝙤𝙤𝙙 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙢𝙞𝙨𝙘𝙖𝙧𝙧𝙞𝙖𝙜𝙚. 𝙋𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙚 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙 𝙖𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙤𝙬𝙣 𝙧𝙞𝙨𝙠!

This was a hard time. It was three months ago, the day we never would forget, but we couldn't go further. Narcissa wasn't herself anymore. She looked awful, her hair wasn't thick anymore, she was so pale and she was in pain, physic and mental. I was in pain too, but I couldn't show my emotions, Malfoys are never showing their emotions, especially a man. My father would laugh at me, stupid Lucius, you are such a weak man.

*Flashback                                                                                                                                                                             It was night, I was asleep, but suddenly I heard Narcissa moving. I don't know how, but I could feel that there was something. I wake up and saw Narcissa, she looked scared. She was holding her nightgown and looked at it. Her eyes were big, so I looked at her nightgown. It was under blood. Where came the blood from? It wasn't internal bleeding, please no. Narcissa is four months pregnant, if this is an internal bleeding, it wasn't a good thing. We looked at each other and didn't say anything. We knew that this was a bad thing. I raised her like the bridal style and apparated to St Mungo. It took hours. Narcissa was still bleeding, there was so much blood. She was under anaesthesia. Then a Healer came to me. ''You are Lucius Malfoy, right? I need to talk to you.'' I nodded and prayed that there wasn't anything bad, but I knew there was something bad. ''Your wife lost the baby, she has a miscarriage, and she is still bleeding.'' I couldn't think anymore, please no! '' And there is something else, it is a little chance that she will ever be pregnant. Maybe she would be never pregnant again, but she could be too.''                                *End Flashback*

Since that day, things were going backwards, I wanted to be here for Narcissa, but we were in war, I needed to work for the Lord. As he knew, my arm branded, the Lord was needing me. I changed and left. Today I was assigned with Dolohov, Rabastan, Rodolphus and Crabbe to do our task for the Lord. When I was done, I went home immediately. I went to the bedroom and saw Narcissa. She sat on the bed, with her head in her hands, her shoulders were shaking, so she was crying. The last time she cried every day. I went to her and sit. ''Go away Lucius, I want to be alone.'' She looked at me, she looked different now, she was pale, paler than usual, she hadn't brushed her hair, no make-up, she lost weight and I could see that she hadn't slept well. But she looked beautiful as always. ''Cissy, I....'' ''No, please, I want to be alone.'' So I left.

*Flashback*                                                                                                                                                         Narcissa was sitting in the hospital bed, stared straight ahead, some days after the news, but she couldn't still go home, because her body needed to rest from the miscarriage. Narcissa and I wanted babies so much, Narcissa wanted her whole life to be a mother, a better mother than she has. ''Cissa, I have an idea, why don't we come up with a name for our baby? Maybe it is better with a name.'' I could see that she liked the idea. ''Do you have a name?'' her voice was so soft. ''Yes, but I don't know if you like it. I thought about Aaliyah.'' ''Yes, Aaliyah Malfoy, I like it.'' She didn't say much, still in pain, she gave herself the debt, and I didn't like that. I left, knowing that I couldn't do anything for her, and went to a pub, and made myself drunk. The next day I had a task for the Lord, and I wanted to murder the babies of the mudbloods. Why did they have children, and we didn't? It wasn't fair, we were purebloods.                                                                         *End Flashback*

We tried many times to make Narcissa pregnant, but it didn't work, yet Narcissa wouldn't give it up, no matter what. She hid her maternity clothes and things from the baby. That night Narcissa didn't come to dinner, so I went to our bedroom. What I saw made me so shocked, I couldn't believe my eyes. Narcissa was standing for the mirror, her hair in front of her face. But the thing was, there was no mirror, at least you couldn't call it a mirror anymore. The whole mirror was broken. Shards of glass were everywhere, and Narcissa's arm was bleeding. It hadn't touched her artery, but there was still a lot of blood. I knew she had hit the mirror with her hand. I ran towards her and grabbed her hand. I took her to the bathroom and made her arm clean and took care of it. She couldn't look into my eyes, and I was silent too. We didn't say anything.

*Flashback*                                                                                                                                                            ''Lucius, I think it is better for you that you are searching for a new wife because we need a hire, and Narcissa can't give it.'' Father was angry, I could see it. ''I will never marry another wife, I love Narcissa. And it isn't sure, Narcissa and I will have a child, I know it!' I was angry too. My father wanted a divorce, but I love Narcissa, and she needed me. ''Get out of my house!'' Father left. I went to our bedroom and went to Narcissa. She was crying, so I put my arms around her, she pressed her face into my chest, and I put my chin on her head. ''It will be fine, you are so strong, I will always love you, no matter what, my beloved Cissa.'' I kissed her. ''I am a monster, Lucius, I killed our child. How can you still love me? You need to listen to your father; we need to divorce.''                                                                                                                                                                 *End Flashback*

We weren't divorced yet, and if it were up to me, we would never be. But we were pureblood, and we had certain duties, stupid duties. then I remembered that Cissy needed a bath, but she wasn't strong for that, so I have to help her. ''Cissy, you need a douche.'' I took her to the bathroom and undressed her. ''I can do it by myself, Lucius.'' ''I know, but I want to help you.'' I made sure that the water wasn't too hot or cold, and put her in the shower. I took a sponge and ran it all over her body. It was nothing sexual. Narcissa sighed. I washed her and dried her. Then I wrapped her in a towel and took her to our room. She dressed and I put her to bed. Then I went to bed too.

𝙃𝙚𝙮𝙮𝙮,                                                                                                                                                                                  𝙄 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙩𝙧𝙮 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙙𝙞𝙛𝙛𝙚𝙧𝙚𝙣𝙩, 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙖 𝙨𝙖𝙙 𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧, 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙄 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙛𝙧𝙤𝙢 𝙇𝙪𝙘𝙞𝙪𝙨 𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙥𝙤𝙞𝙣𝙩 𝙤𝙛 𝙫𝙞𝙚𝙬, 𝙝𝙤𝙬 𝙝𝙚 𝙙𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙨 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙥𝙖𝙞𝙣, 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙣 𝙝𝙚 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨𝙣'𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙛𝙚𝙚𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨, 𝙝𝙚 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙨 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙚 𝙘𝙤𝙡𝙙, 𝙗𝙪𝙩 𝙝𝙚 𝙞𝙨 𝙖 𝙝𝙪𝙢𝙖𝙣 𝙩𝙤𝙤, 𝙨𝙤 𝙝𝙚 𝙝𝙖𝙨 𝙛𝙚𝙚𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨 𝙩𝙤𝙤. 𝘼𝙣𝙙 𝙉𝙖𝙧𝙘𝙞𝙨𝙨𝙖, 𝙤𝙛 𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙨𝙚 𝙞𝙣 𝙥𝙖𝙞𝙣, 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙨 𝙖 𝙗𝙖𝙗𝙮. 𝙔𝙚𝙨, 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙞𝙨 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙖 𝙛𝙖𝙣𝙛𝙞𝙘𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣, 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙄 𝙨𝙖𝙞𝙙 𝙖𝙡𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙮 𝙞𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙧𝙮, 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙮 𝙘𝙖𝙣 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙖 𝙗𝙖𝙗𝙮, 𝙗𝙚𝙘𝙖𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙞𝙩 𝙬𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 𝙗𝙚 𝙬𝙚𝙞𝙧𝙙 𝙗𝙚𝙘𝙖𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙮 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝘿𝙧𝙖𝙘𝙤. 𝙄 𝙙𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬 𝙞𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙛𝙡𝙖𝙨𝙝𝙗𝙖𝙘𝙠𝙨.

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