My Testimonies and Learnings

Testimony #5

1 Samuel 24:12

"May the LORD judge between you and me. And may the LORD avenge the wrongs you have done to me, but my hand will not touch you."

First time kong nakabasa nito, I was like "..." as in speechless ako kasi "wow". Ung background story nito is si David ay nagtatago from Saul. Saul is the first king ng mga Israelites and because of his bitterness towards David, gusto niya siyang ipapatay.

But God was with David. He kept him safe. Then God promised to David na He will deliver his enemies to his hands. One time when Saul was resting, may chance na siya na patayin si Saul pero di niya ginawa yon. Why? Kasi alam ni David na anointed ni Lord si Saul. Si Lord ang pumili kay Saul na maging hari ng mga Israelites. Ang mali lang ni Saul ay although he followed God's command, hindi totally and completely. Lumabag pa rin siya. Dapat kasi sa pag-raid nila sa isang lugar, walang matitira. As in lahat papatayin. Pero di sumunod si Saul kaya nagregret si Lord na si Saul ang pinili niya. Thats why God looked for another anointed man. Siya yong "a man after God's heart". And si David nga yon.

Going back, binigyan ni Lord ng chance si David na patayin si Saul pero di niya ginawa.

What amazes me is when David never did wrong to Saul after all the things he went through. Dahil  nga nagtatago siya mula kay Saul. His heart is pure at talagang makikita sa character niya na he is after God's heart.

I realized na hindi ko kailangang maghiganti sa mga taong nanakit sakin. Some people may think na ang hina or ang tanga ko kasi di ako lumalaban, na hinahayaan ko lang sila na apihin ako. But for me, hindi kahinaan or katangahan ang paggawa ng mabuti sa mga taong nanakit satin. The world tells us to revenge and payback those people who hurt us but the bible teaches us the otherwise. Si David, he never laid his hand on Saul when he had the chance to end Saul's life. Kasi ginagalang niya si Saul, ginagalang niya si Lord. Anointed yan si Saul eh. Pinili ni Lord.

I personally went through a lot of sufferings because of other people. Recalling all those painful experiences made me think of the what ifs and what could have beens if only my heart was evil too. Di siguro natapos ang gulo at wala akong kapayapaan ngayon.

I praise God kasi He removed those people out of my life. I'm in the process of healing. Si Lord ang nagpapagaling sa puso ko, sa past ko and Siya na rin ang nag-plan for my future.

One thing I can guarantee you is siguro sa ngayon you're with people who destroy your inner peace, and even your life. But remember na may purpose yan. May reason kung bakit you have to go through that kind of pain. Ako dati di ko maintindihan kung bakit I needed to suffer. Pero ngayon, alam ko na. Kasi ung test ko noon, nagiging testimony ko ngayon. Oo, masakit. There were times that I wanted to end my life but look at me now. I found salvation in Jesus. I found my purpose in life. And thats to encourage, motivate and testify God's goodness and faithfulness.

To God be all the glory!