Tate and Violet- Forever Yours

Chapter 12- Violet

Violet

Looking out of my bedroom window I pull the faded blue curtains out of the way and look into the garden.

It's the middle of winter and the whole world looks like it has been sugar-coated. Well, obviously I can't see the whole world because I'm trapped in this house.

Violet remember to think positively.

The garden looks beautiful though the gazabo is covered in snow and the grass along with about everything else is buried deep underneath it.

Fresh fallen snow has always looked appealing to me. It just looks so young and innocent.

I think it should be admired from far away because as soon as you touch it and use it its beauty vanishes and it turns into slush.

That's why I'm here staring out of my window hoping someone won't come along and steal my beautiful snow away from me.

Although saying that was my only reason to be staring out of the window for the past 6 hours would be a lie.

To be honest I'm hiding from Tate.

Ever since our last encounter things have been a little awkward between us because I have seen him prancing around this house with the biggest smile on his face.

He's not hiding anymore which means I casually bump into him on my way to the basement or he sends me friendly smiles as I walk through the rooms.

I can't stand seeing Tate looking so happy as my heart and brain are in turmoil trying to outwit each other.

I don't know how I feel towards him anymore.

Once it was love.

Then it was Hate.

And now my emotions have merged into something else, a mixture of the two.

I feel like I'm being pulled in two different directions and if I lean more towards one way then the other will attack me.

Why do I have to make a choice between running up to him and embracing him or kicking him in the balls and telling him where to go shove it?

Why can't I just be neutral towards him not being his lover or his friend but not being his enemy?

Violet, you know you want to something more intiament with Tate.

Shut up stupid heart my brains taking control of this situation.

I can't do this any more. I can't make a choice.

But I have too. Tate said he was going to wait for me. Which means wants an answer in the end. I don't think I can though........

I must....

I have too ....

I need to make a desion, but I don't think my heart can take anymore pain.

I know what I should do. I should distract myself maybe it is time to go outside and play in the snow with Travis and the other children.

Yes thats what I'm going to do.

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Hey guys just wanted to let you know that the next unknown chapter is going to be 15. So theres a heads up if you're wondering where it is.

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