Tate and Violet- Forever Yours

Chapter 14 - Violet

Violet

My mind is like a battlefield,  I'm confused and I don't know what my next move will be. The Turmoil consumes me.

I can't do it. I can't choose between my heart and my brain. I can't love Tate but I can't hate him either.

Violet you know you can't live without him.

I'm dead.

What's the point in living, if I'm just existing and haunting this world anyway?

And this is the type of self turmoil I've been trying to fight for the past couple of days.

I'm still angry with Mum and Dad and I can't forgive them for how they treated me. I know that my situation with Tate is similar to the one I have with my parents.

Tate raped your mother.

Your parents just wanted to protect you.

Shut up brain my heart's trying to make sense of things.

I'm only trying to protect myself I don't want to be hurt anymore. I don't know if I can put myself back together any more times.

I know I'm broken but I can't talk to anyone about how I'm feeling because everyone I loved has done something to hurt me.

Wait.

What about Travis?

He seems nice enough, his good with children and must be a good listener to put up with Constance's ongoing chitter chatter.

I hope that he will be able to give me some good advice otherwise I'm not sure what I'll do with myself.

For me to forgive Tate I would need my family to accept his mistakes and for him to show sorrow.

I already know he is truly sorry but I can't get my family to forgive him if I haven't forgiven them.

I can't forgive them though unless they are the ones who apologise to me. I'm definitely not the bigger person in this mess I once called a family.

I think I'm definitely going to find Travis right now and talk to him.