Tate and Violet- Forever Yours

Chapter 10- Violet

Violet

It's been a few days since I have last spoken to Mum and Dad but I just can't be bothered with them anymore.

It's not like I feel lonely or anything. And I'm definitely not craving human contact because I'm completely and utterly happy.

Well, maybe not exactly.

Somehow I have dug myself into a dark self-hating hole and I don't know how to get my self out of it.

All I have done for the last couple of days is hole my self up in what used to be my old bedroom.

I feel as if all theses pent up emotions I've been trying to suppress have come up to the surface.

I can feel the darkness surrounding me and I can feel it seeping into my soul and eating me alive.

I don't want to be like this anymore, I just want to be free from this world of evil and corruption. Why couldn't I just pass on happy and not be trapped with memories of my shitty life?

I bury my head into my pillow and start crying into it.

Great the first time I have cried in over 19 years is for nothing. I'm so pathetic.

I felt a cold hand on my back and heard a soft familiar voice mutter something underneath their breath.

I turned around and saw Tate standing over me with a sad smile on his face.

He moved his hand to my face and brushed away all the tears with the back of his hand.

What is he doing? I said goodbye to him and told him to leave me alone 20 years ago.

Why now?

Why all of a sudden would he revel him self to me?

" Go away Tate" I muttered.

He looked hurt. I don't really want him to leave me but I don't want him to stay either. To tell you the truth I'm not sure what I want anymore.

" Violet I have seen you in pain for so long and it broke my heart knowing you were unhappy. I can't stand by and watch you destroy your self." He said with tears falling down his face.

He still cares about me , I pushed him away and yet he is still concerned about me.

Tears streamed from my face and I felt Tate's comforting and big arms wrap themselves around my frail torso. I leant my head against his shoulder and wrapped my arms around his back.

He smelt so good.

Violet get a hold of your self he is a monster who destroyed your family.

Pushing Tate away from me we sat sitting inches away from each other. He looked slightly confused and yet he stared into my eyes as if he could see within my soul.

I .... I don't know what to do. He raped my mother and killed so many people. He is a monster.

But I love him.

I changed him and he loves me.

" Tate, I just need some time," I whispered underneath my breath.

He seemed to hear me though as he stood up from the bed and turned back towards me.

" For you Violet I'll give you all the time in the world" with that he gave me a shy smile and disappeared once more.

Sitting on my bed I wrap my hands around my folded legs trying to figure out what the fuck had just happened back there.

My mind is in shambles and my heart is thumping like crazy which is weird because I'm dead.

I don't know everything is so confusing. My brain is telling me one thing but my heart is telling me to forget it and run into the arms of the man I love.

No.

I must be strong.