Your Happy Face

Chapter 1

ᴀꜱ ᴛʜᴇ ʏᴇᴀʀꜱ ᴘᴀꜱꜱ, ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ. ʙᴜᴛ ᴍʏ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ꜰᴏʀ ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴀꜱ ᴀʟᴡᴀʏꜱ ꜱᴛᴀʏᴇᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴀᴍᴇ.

I'm scared and sad to admit, but I've changed. I was the optimistic and outgoing girl in my happiest days of my life. Myself back then wouldn't even imagine what I've grown up to be.
The whole summer vacation, I stayed in my home with no contact of any of my classmates. I don't even know if they consider me as their friends anymore. I just stayed home continuing making origami cranes and studying. I'm no longer capable of going up to someone and randomly starting a conversation. And I can no longer talk to boys the same way. Heck, I wonder how the hell I was able to talk to boys when I was younger!

I despise boys now. Every time I even look at them, anxiety devours my body and I begin to shake. One boy confessed to me when I was younger. I couldn't even say anything and just ran away.
It all started when Andrew disappeared.
I hate how I have changed. I hate how I developed so many new fears after the incident with my first love. I always look at the past and realize how pathetic I am right now.
Luckily, for me, high school is a brand new start. I can start over, and become someone new. I can start over, and be the person who I used to be in my middle school. All I have to do, is go to a school far far away from my middle school. No one will know who I am. No one will know who I used to be. It's a brand new start.

I want to be well liked. I want to be friends with everyone. I want to be able to talk to boys again. I want to be the person who I used to be during my happiest moments of my life.

As I was making my way to my school, there were many students who were already in groups. There were already many students in pairs and groups talking, laughing, and smiling with one another. I felt intimidated and I lost all my hopes already. I wanted to go back home. I knew I shouldn't have picked a school so far away. Maybe I should go back...?

I quickly turned around, I wanted to take a short break before stepping onto campus. But as I turned around, I felt a huge thump against my shoulder all the way down my arm. I bumped into someone. I slowly dragged my eyes upwards to meet face to face with the person I accidentally bumped into. But no one was there, so I decided to look downwards and there I saw her.

This girl seemed like she had...a pretty face. But it looked like it was covered in makeup. She had thick red lips which would speak loud, mean, and strong words. She had mid length hair, the color of chocolate. Judging from first appearance, she looked like she was radiating with confidence.

What should I do? Should I say sorry? This is the first person I'm going to talk-
"Well, school's in the other direction..."
She spoke with disgust, interrupting my thoughts running in my mind.
Another girl peeped her head behind the "pretty" brown-haired girl. She didn't say anything, but from the look of her hazel eyes, I could tell she was scanning me. She looked up and down my whole body.

I need to get away from these girls. If I keep on hanging around them, my high school life is going to be just like the end of my middle school. I'm not only going to be left alone, I'm going to get bullied. I don't want this to happen.

I had an idea.

"WHOOPS!!! HAHAHAHAHA!! OF COURSE I KNEW THAT!! EHEHEHEHEHE!!!" I spoke.

Tons of heads all rotated towards the three of us. The two girls' eyes widened.

"I FORGOT ONE OF MY BOOKS IN THE CAR!! I JUST REALIZED BEFORE I STEPPED INTO CAMPUS. OH GOSH THAT WOULD BE SOOO BAD IF I KEPT ON GOING! HEHEHEHEHEHE!!!!"

The girls looked at each other for at least 3 seconds. They then glanced at me and gave a grin. The "pretty" brown-haired girl then laughed.

"Hahaha, yeah you're right. You're funny. What's your name?"