September 11, 2020
Dear Jiwon,
Jiwon-ah I'm feeling really uneasy right now. I just got home from an um I guess "traumatic experience". When I was on my way home from work someone was following me, I'm sure of it. Thankfully and coincidentally I bumped into Jay halfway. Okay, what happened next is kind of... I don't even know how to explain it. He kissed me. I mean I didn't say anything about it because I know he only did it to get rid of that man but still. I don't know, I wanted to push him away right away but when we broke the kiss I wanted more, as perverted as that may sound it's the truth. I'm still missing that euphoric feeling I had when he put his lips on mine... It scares me how I want him. I don't even know him, all I know is his name and how things at home are not the best. It terrifies me how much trust I've been giving him from telling him about your death to giving him your phone, and telling him my situation at home. I wanted to refuse to give him my trust over and over again, but at the back of my head something keeps pushing forward, convincing me every time to trust him and only him. I'm afraid that I'll get so close to him I won't be able to let go. I don't want to lose someone else and I want to distance myself from him but he keeps showing up right in my face when I become vulnerable and need someone to rely on. Did you do this Jiwon? Did you put him in front of me because someway you knew that I'd trust him and that I need him?
On another note, earlier today Jay handed your phone to a classmate of his. He says that she's good at those things like retrieving deleted things. To be honest, I'm scared to know if you were hiding something from me. More than what I fear most; being alone, finding out that you were keeping something from me, which I honestly never considered scares me. You didn't keep anything from me right Jiwon-ah?
A/N: So Thursday and Friday this week I will be busy so I decided to publish today. I am not sure but I will try to publish another chapter later today. Adios!
As always stay happy, safe, and healthy!!
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FanfictionLee Kimberly passes through pain from losing her best friend to suicide, blaming herself for missing her calls that day. But maybe she can regain her happiness. Step number one: find her killer. ⚠TW⚠: Mentions of - abuse, drugs, rape, suicide, bull...
