like i need you ||oisuga||

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'come over for dinner this weekend' was what his mom had texted him an hour ago and sugawara hadn't stopped fidgeting ever since.

akiro didn't reach out to him either. he didn't come over or even phone him once. sugawara was well aware that his mother took the younger boy's gadgets away but akiro had his own ways too. he would usually call him at mid night using the land line of the house. 

 as much as he thought an anime would help him distract himself. it didn't happen. which led to only one thing, going out.

and now sugawara was currently out on a run, the opening of the latest season of attack on titan blasting in his ears as he passed through a group of children playing in the park. sugawara couldn't help but give it a stink eye. it's not that he hates kids (or maybe he does we'd never know), sugawara barely got to play as one.

ever since his mother started pestering him about akiro which was around the age of seven, sugawara gave up on playing with the friends he and akiro had. his mother's words kept revolving around his head. 

protect akiro. protect akiro protect akiro.

though there was barely anything to protect akiro from, sugawara started sitting on benches watching the other run around, sitting had him bored honestly. which lead him to start reading books. and losing friends. 

maybe his addiction to reading did get out of hand in middle school, the only time sugawara was seen talking to someone was during club activities but he had still managed to make three friends from class. one of them was the popular guy in his section who also liked to read, sugawara and he often exchanged books and handled them with care, the other one was more of a troublemaker who got  borrowed other's food cause he forgot his. and third one was a social butterfly and was from sugawara's volleyball team. the group four was well and fun.

they didn't mind sugawara having bad days way to often till sugawara snapped at one of them once and it was all over.

it didn't take long enough for them to start distancing themselves from him and making him feel unwanted even after he apologized. just like he was treated at home.

 a month later sugawara had met him.

oikawa was a huge flirt but also got flustered easily. too easily actually. he hid into sugawara's shoulder for ten whole minutes after pecking his cheek for the first time. sugawara himself was surprised by it over came it in seconds and had pecked oikawa's forehead in return which had made oikawa squeal into his shoulder nuzzling his face into sugawa's shoulder to hide deeper as if it was possible. 

he broke all of sugwara's walls in days, sugawara never told him about his home life but had constant break downs infront of his former boyfriend almost every time they met. oikawa never dared to ask the boy what was wrong and comforted him always sometimes even crying with him cause he couldn't handle sugawara looking so upset and broken. 

those times whirled around sugawara's head to the point he didn't notice how toxic their relationship was getting. the amount of red flags he got throughout their relationship, nothing. he was so unaware throughout cause he had fallen so deep for oikawa that it seemed normal to him.  

he didn't know how relationships work. it was his first one after all. when iwaizumi talked to sugawara about how he should discuss their relationship out with oikawa once, he had ressured his best friend's boyfriend that it would turn out well. but oh how iwaizumi was so wrong.

sugawara did indeed confront oikawa, told him about how it bothered him that oikawa never talked to him and how it seemed one sided, how it seemed like prioritized his friends over him, how he ghosted him for hours and so on.