"What's wrong with me?"

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Lunch couldn't come fast enough.  I explained my plan to everybody but only Paige wanted to do it, the others were scared they would get into trouble but we didn't care. 

At lunch Josh started the boom box and all heads turned to me and Paige as we climbed onto a table and started dancing.  The cafeteria erupted in cheers.  The three 'populars' got on the next table and started dance.

It was a dance off and Paige and I ended up winning.  

The three girls stomped off and Paige and I hugged.

"We are popular" she smiled. 

"Like always" I laughed.

We got down and saw none other than the principal.

"Detention" she said handing us a slip of paper.

We had it after school for two hours, for three days.

"Oh well" I shrugged my shoulders as the principal walked away.

"That was so amazing" was what tons of people were saying.  I ran over to Josh and hugged him.

"That was so good" he smiled, I jumped up and wrapped my legs around his waist.  We started kissing.  

"Man I need a boyfriend" I heard Brooke say and I smiled into the kiss. 

We finally pulled away and I rested my head on Josh's chest.

I saw Andrew and Paige in the same position.

"Josh I'm tired" I yawned.

"Then go to sleep baby" he said.

"After detention let's go to the beach and dance" I said.

"You miss dance don't you?"

"More than anything" I sighed.

"Well then we will" he smiled and I pecked his lips.

"Actually No I don't I don't want to be reminded of my past" I said.

"Why?"

"I don't like my past and I don't want the memories coming back" I whispered.

"I understand" he said and pecked my lips just as the bell rang.

"Bye babe" I smiled jumping off of him.

"Bye A" he whispered.  I walked off with Paige.

"Josh seemed weird" Paige whispered to me.

"I don't know why" I said.

Paige just stared at me.  "Autie when's the last time you had a period?" she asked me.

"3 months ago" I said.  Oh no!  This can not be happening, not to me.

"Autumn I'm taking you to a doctor after school" she said, I nodded.

"Paige what if I am?" I asked on the verge of tears.

"Josh will surely leave me" I whispered.

"No he won't and we will all help you" she said. 

Just then I saw Maddison, Chloe, Nia, and Kendall.

"What are they doing here?" Paige asked.

We walked up to them.  "CHLO" I hugged her and then I hugged Maddie, Nia, and Kendall.

"We don't want the fame so we moved here" they explained.

"Where do you live?" I asked.

"Right beside you" Nia said.

"YAY" Me and Paige yelled.

After detention Paige and I walked to the doctors.  We sat in the waiting room when finally we were called back.  After doing tests the doctor left and said that she would be right back.

"Paige I'm scared" I admitted.

"It'll be okay" Paige said.

The doctor came back in.

"So you are about 8 weeks pregnant" that is the worst news I have ever received.

"Is the baby okay?" I asked.

"Well we think so, come back in a week and we'll do an ultrasound" she said, I nodded

"Okay" I said standing up.

"Have a lovely day" she smiled as we walked out.

I sighed.

"Paige how will I tell everybody?" I asked.

"I have no idea but I will be with you every step of the way" she said.

"Only you and Josh know I was raped" I said.

"Autie you don't have to tell them yet, you won't really start showing for like two or three more months, so you have time" Paige said.

"In all good news our birthday is in a week" Paige smiled.

"I don't want to do anything" I sighed.

"Okay" Paige said.

"Me either" she quickly added.

"My ultrasound is on our birthday" I explained.

"Want me to go with you?" she asked as we reached our house, it was the biggest house in this poor town.

"Please" I begged, she nodded.

"Of course" she said opening the door to the house.

Everybody was in the  living room, including Maddie, Nia, and Chloe.

"Where were you two?" Brooke asked as Maddie and Addie ran up to me.

"MOMMY" They yelled and I picked them up.

"Just talking, we never have time for that anymore" Paige answered for me.

"We're just going to go up to my room, we'll be right back" I announced and walked off, Paige followed me.

We walked in my room and I shut the door.  I sat on my bed and set Maddie and Addie in my lap.

"We don't have enough rooms here" I said

"There's a basement, we can turn that into a little apartment thingy for you and Josh it's HUGE" Paige exclaimed.

"Okay" I sighed.

"It'll be okay I promise" Paige said.  I stood up and walked out, I walked downstairs and sat on the floor.

"So how have you been Autie?" Chloe asked.

"Okay" I said.

"Is everything okay?" Josh asked, I couldn't take it anymore I crumpled to the ground in sobs.

 "NO" I yelled.

What is wrong with me I never used to cry, NEVER and now look at me that's all I seem to do nowadays.

 "What's wrong?" Andrew asked.

"I can't take this anymore" I yelled.

"Paige what happened?" I heard someone ask.

"I think Autie should tell you" Paige said.

"Autie?" I heard someone ask.

I wiped my tears away and sat up.

"Whenever those guys killed my dad they uhm raped me now I'm pregnant.  I'm so sorry" I cried. 

"Shh baby it's okay we'll love this baby, all of us will" Josh wrapped his arms around me.

I wiped my tears again and pulled away from Josh.

 "Thank you guys for being so understanding" I smiled.

"Now who wants to hit the beach?" Isabella asked.

"ME" everybody yelled.

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