never ending

mhmm.

next week
so i havent talked to austin i have been..i mean august almost forgot his name cus thats how irrelevant he is to my life now😴 he is now just a memory idc but like i was saying i have been chilling, writing songs, getting people to get on them well trying underground artist that are actually good on there when i buy my studio time & tinashe was in there shes so pretty but imma release these songs & its been a really busy week i didnt know writing music took this long or so much hard work instead of saying something completely stupid and having a nice beat and it gets famous but def jam said they will sign me once i release a mixtape and if it sells good "we'll talk" i might get a record deal ayye twerk twerk so i have to get all that done but my manager, jess has helped a lot and i dont think i couldve done all of this alone tbh but today gynai cussed me out cus paparazzi was all on me & august at hawaii & i was deadass lying to him & i texted gynai like everyday and talked from time to time before i went to hawaii*
Me and gynai convo over the phone.
gynai: so you think im stupid
chey: what?
gynai: you do dont you !
chey: so confused
gynai: why the hell are you still w. that bum ass nigga i swear i wanna smack the shit out of you
chey: i undestand your mad but dont get crazy cus im crazier im reckless gynai and you dont want that
gynai: bitch....
chey: bitch what? stfu gynai cus i want to talk and i dont wanna break up..cus i love you
gynai: you have the coolest way of showing me you love me imma hang out w. this boy im cheating on my bf but imma text him and call him and tell him im not w. him i shouldve never trusted you your a hoe and a liar and youve been like this from the start
chey: ohhhhhhh...thats how u feel
gynai: yep i aint taking shit back cus ian no liar
chey: mhmm
gynai: and im breaking up w. you ! im done w. you dont ever call me or text me again man ever because were not friends and we will never be its over for good
chey: i still wanna talk
gynai: yea ok so i can cus your hoe ass out in person
chey: stop calling me a hoe you knew what this was ! you knew.
gynai: i didnt.
chey: mhm
gynai: hoe..
chey: your calling you gf a hoe
gynai: your not my gf😂 your nothing to me all you are is a hoe
*he hung up😐😓 i feel so deeply about him but i get carried away i still love him but im stupid asf what have i just done? why did i cheat! im deadass crying he trusted me.. he thought he could i told him i not w. august i dont fw him and now hes mad im mad we broke up over this i knew this was gonna happen it was like i love you gynai but you see august kept me happy & i didnt want him to find out bcus i didnt want to hurt him but i thought august was the one so it was worth it but it wasnt he was just like every nigga hes the same im so stupid but atlanta here i come we can face to face talk so next week & i will meet him but until then writing songs, hanging, thinking about what im going to do w. my life, are the moves gia and gabi are in school niyah is in school and toraine is still in school so i just need to to figure out am i enrolling to college or what.

an: imma upload another cus its another thought chapter but idk how people get famous so if i miss steps i wouldnt know