Tourette's || KuroKen

chapter 20 (19?) - as the months go by

TW: suicide attempt/mentioning; tic attack

a/n: This chapter will include a lot of time skips! Sorry if it gets confusing, I'm still trying to process how to make these last couple of chapters! :))

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It has been almost a year since Kenma's mother had died. It will almost be Kuroo's birthday, he will be at the age of seventeen.

During those months Christmas had past. It was a fun celebration of so called happiness, to spread the joy with presents and romance. Misaki was especially into that Christmas, she got new plants to add to the jungle of greens. New Years had also past. The four people all went to a shrine that day, wishing for a healthy and happy year to come. But a couple weeks after New Years, still in the month of January, Kenma had tried to kill himself. No one had knew of why he had tried, only assumed it was about his mother's passing. He was admitted into a mental hospital not too long after. In addition, Kuroo had also been admitted into the hospital for breaking his ankle from a large and horrific tic attack.

Maybe they had jinxed wishing at the shrine? This year did not start off happy and healthy.

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One month had passed, now in the month of February. Kenma has been discharged from the hospital, and Kuroo has been at home with a cast and crutches.

"I can't believe you tried offing yourself," Kuroo raised his eyebrows as an attempt to open his eyes more.

Kenma had mimicked the sentence the bed-headed boy said.

"But, why?" Kuroo whistled in between each word.

Kenma laid his head back onto the couch cushions and let out a huge sigh, "I don't know anymore, to rid myself of this world? Why else?"

Kuroo chuckled in response, maybe his questions was a bit dumb. Why else would someone try and drown themself after drinking a bottle of alcohol beforehand?

Finding Kenma was probably the most heart wrenching thing he has seen. It all happened so fast, sprinting to his friend, pulling him out of the chilled water as his face was blank and white. Oh how dearly he wanted to rid that memory out of his mind.

"But.. why are you trying to rid yourself of this world?" Kuroo's face went blank, "No one will understand why, but I — Crack — want to. I need to know.."

Kenma's eyes hazed, "The mental hospital sucked, I couldn't use my phone at all."

"Stop ignoring me, it's a bad— Crackity, Crack, Shit — ha..bit."

He groaned, "What are the chances of it being due to me in love with you?" Kenma starred at the ceiling with a faint smile.

Kuroo widened his eyes, but slowly softened them,"I would guess a lot of chance." Kuroo chuckled and starred at the ceiling as well. Kenma was startled by the answer coming from Kuroo, but kept quiet. "But even if you were in love me, I don't get why you would think I am worth of your love."

Kenma closed his eyes, "You just make me feel at peace, Kuro."

Kuroo couldn't help but let a single tear slip from his eyes, "Yea.. you too." He bit his lip and smiled, letting one more tear slip by.

Kenma smiled, even this response was enough for himself.

Kuroo stood up and stretched, wiping the tear away from his face, "Make sure to— Crack! — not overlo — H2O is good for yo'! —" Kuroo gave up on his sentence, expecting Kenma would understand what his intentions were.