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I was at the hospital again. They were running tests, as usual.
I was just laying there as always, looking at all the white in the room. I was getting really tired of looking at only white walls for most of my life.
Once they were done they let me rest and gave me some water. They had me stay overnight again just because I felt a bit faint and had some trouble breathing earlier. My mother always overreacts over the littlest things. It's not like am suddenly gonna die, not yet at least.
I often miss most of school because of the hospital visits. I would have to redo the whole year at this point. That is assuming I last to redo the year. The doctors say I only have about 6-7 months left to live which is pretty good whichever way you think of it. Half a year to do things that I want until I go six feet under.
If I'm being honest, I really don't want to die. I wanted to go to piano competitions and show off how good I am. I wanted to graduate from Fukurodani. I wanted to fall in love, get married and have kids. I wanted to do a lot. But I'm barely even gonna last until summer unless some sort miracle happens.
I really hate having cancer.
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Today was one of the lucky where I got to go to school for the whole day.
After the day was over I went over to the school gymnasium, like I always do. I set the speaker down and played a recording of a piece I covered. It was Nocturne in E flat Op. 9 No.2 and it is one of my favorite covers I have done. (Nocturne is actually one of my favorite pieces to listen to)
I stood up and just started to waltz like someone else was with me, waiting for him to join me. And he did. He always remembered to come here. I opened my eyes and smiled at him.
Looking into his beautiful blue-green eyes washed all my worries away and even made me forget the fact that I was sick. In those moments with him, it was just us and the music. No worries or cares. Just us waltzing in a school gymnasium.
When the music ended I let him go. I was about to walk away but he did something different this time. Instead of letting me walk away, he grabbed me by my wrist and pulled me close to him.
I was shocked. I don't ever remember being this close to a boy before, let alone someone as beautiful and handsome as him. I just stayed there with a blush on my face, not daring to move.
"Please just tell me your name. Please, or else I might go crazy from not knowing." Akaashi said with a slight chuckle and I could feel the vibration that came from it.
I pulled away from him and looked him in the eye. The eyes that could always make me happy, no matter the situation. The eyes that washed away all my worries and made me trust. The eyes that I can't get used to seeing.
"Y/n. My name is Y/n." I answered him.
His face lit up at just the knowing of my name. I felt guilt inside me knowing that once I was gone I doubt he will look that way again. I could tell Akaashi grew very fond of me and I hated it. I didn't want him to feel hurt or be sad once we couldn't meet here anymore. Once we couldn't be two slow dancers anymore...
"You'll always remember, huh?" I said with a smile to him and then grabbed my things and disappeared.
No matter how badly you want it gone. No matter how badly you want to forget, you always remember.
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hehe cancer is fun :D Cancer can suck my ass I hate it. A little backstory no one asked for: my grandfather died from cancer and then my cousin had cancer when she was younger but thank god she's still alive.
This is gonna be so messed up and I'm sorry.
Hope you enjoyed this chapter! stay cool peeps. take care :)- G.
