THE DIARY

ENTRY 14

Hey,

I haven't been active for a while with my writing here.

It's been two weeks now, my bad. I've just been a bit occupied with school, girls, my social life, basketball and trying to maintain my mental health.

I'll try to summarize everything, but I may get carried away. There is just something about writing my feelings out that puts me in a trance.

So let's start with school.....

Everyone had gone back to their normal lifestyles after the test.

The school was popping as hell with couples showing public affection towards each other as valentine was fast approaching.

Oppressing the singles....sigh!!

Damilare and Favour made me feel worse. I always had to third wheel them.

They make a cute couple, but still!!

I don't know why I still hang out with them tbh.

Just the other day, Damilare called me to play basketball with him. Only for him to ditch me and hang out with his babe.

Anyhoo that's all about school life I'm afraid.

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Ahem ahem....

Claudia and I still talk from time to time, I mean I need some attention too yk?

We would talk and talk for hours, video calls, picture spams, you name it. It was like we were dating..oh well!!

Nothing unusual though, I just hope I don't end up pushing her away like I always do.

Aisha...

Turns out the issue she has with Olamide is more complex than I thought. She doesn't want to talk about it either so whatever!

But it seems it has something to do with her younger sister.

I'm not sure, but from all my eavesdropping, it seems that Olamide might have made a move on her sister, Halimat.

Oh Olamide!! Why!!

I've not confirmed it though so I cant judge her, Sigh!! And it could be more than that too.

I don't want to start thinking about it, else ill start overthinking.

Besides its not my problem.

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A week ago, I got a message from an unknown number.

I was going to ignore the message until the person identified herself as Olamide.

How did she get my number? I had wondered, but I was too excited to hear from her to bear that thought.

I greeted her casually as if she didn't just break my heart some weeks ago. She seemed excited to chat with me but I was just passive with my responses...im a hard guy, hard guys cant be doing like mumu for a girl.

I wanted to ask about the girl she was with the other day...

But-

I felt it was too soon-

Or that I was being too privy-

I didn't want to know either, or did I???

I hate feeling this way, the confusion messes with my head.

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I started to make some researches about my sexuality, I just might be asexual..idk

I don't like the thought of sex. I mean I watch porn sometimes, yes. Do I get aroused?, yes...Sigh, its all so confusing.

And there is also my constant wet dreams involving Claudia, Olamide and Promise. Boy do I enjoy those dream.

Your girl will wake up hot, bothered and happy haha..

I remember this one dream with Promise, were I kissed her in public after one of our classes, like that could happen.

A girl can hope though.

Talking about Promise....we started getting closer too.

And guess what? She was the one that initiated it...shocked?? I know I was.

It was one evening after balling my heart out on the court and making 3 pointers like a boss. I was dead ass tired and wanted nothing more than to crash on my bed and sleep for 12 hours.

Then I got a text from Promise.

She was bored and wanted to go out for an evening walk with me.

I was up and dressed in 2minutes, my gosh I'm a Simp lmaoo

I met up with her and checked her out like the fool I am.... she looked beautiful and smelled great.

I didn't tell her that though.

We chatted as we walked side by side.

She got a bit cold, so I gave her the hoodie I tied around my waist because I suspected it may get chilly.

Cheesy...I know but I don't care....

Screammmm!!

She wore my hoodie...

We were out for about 2hrs talking and walking around the school.

When we got to her hostel, she hugged me, kissed my left cheek and thanked me for accompanying her...

OMG!!OMG!!

I experienced a mental gay panic but played it off with a, "It's fine, i'll see you tomorrow, bye"

My God!!

She hugged me!!! HAAAAA

And kissed my cheek!!! DOUBLE HAAAAA!!

Lets just say I slept like a baby that night and missed my 8AM class, but it was worth it.

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We strolled again two times after that and I enjoyed every bit of it.

And, she hasn't given me my hoodie yet...I don't mind, especially if I get to see her wearing it.

Argghhhh

Anyhoo, that's all the interesting stuff that has happened so far.

I hope I've been able to update you a bit..

Writing here has helped me a lot with expressing myself and I know ill get better.

So-

Emm-

Bye

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