THE DIARY

ENTRY 8

Dear Diary,

My entry for today would be about my entire week.

Classes have been stressful asf and I'm tired of school already.
I have been having sleepless nights and I have been thinking a lot.
Don't let me start on the 'anxiety'.

I have also been skipping meals but I always have food to eat at the end of the day sha, thanks to Aisha and Olamide. Those girls always cook enough for me.

Damilare has been keeping his distance from me. Can't I have a normal guy friend that won't have feelings for me? Argghhh
I mean we've only know each other for some weeks na.

He knows how to hide it though and that's fine with me.
I don't want him to feel weird when he's with me, he's a really good person.

Then Chuks, that dude dosent take the hint that I hate him.
I told Damilare about what he did at the basketball court the other day and let's just say they aren't friends anymore.

Favour and I have been catching up too.
She fancies Damilare.
It is so obvious but I dont think she's going to do anything about it.
I dont want to pry so I'll just see how everything turns out.

........
If I'm not in class I'm on the court balling with the boys.

I even play with some girls on the court. Those girls are on the school team.

At first I used to feel intimidated by them but they were very accepting.
We would usually play till around 4-5 pm.

After the game we would joke around till we are ready to go to our separate hostels and unfortunately for me, none of them stay in my hostel.
But Damilare and the boys would still escort me to mine. Such charming guys.

........

My social life is on and off because of school and stress.

I usually chat with Claudia, Brittany (my best friend) and Tolani my younger sister.

Brittany is enjoying herself in her school, the University of Benin (UNIBEN).
She has made lots of friends and I'm not surprised.
She's the kind of girl that gets along with everyone, someone must know her and she isn't afraid to fight for what is right.

I have no idea how we became friends but I'm glad we did.

We usually chat about everything so she knows about Damilare.
She teases me about him everytime we talk.

I wish I could tell her I'm bisexual sigh.

My sister only chats me up when she needs data that naughty girl.
I miss her crazy ass though.

My parents call me sometimes to check up on me.

Then Claudia,
*cough*cough
Things have been going pretty good.
She asked if we could video call and I accepted of course.

I didnt regret any bit of that video call.
She talked like we have known each other for years.
And yes she's so pretty.
I took lots of screenshots of the call👉👈

All I did was smile as I watched her talk.

Chatting with her is never boring too. There would always be something to talk about.
She's just that awesome.
Too good to be true really.

.........

Aisha is the best.

Omg!! She's just the best!!

She cooks for me every time haha

But that's not the only reason why I appreciate her.
She's just great.
Her presence has a way of calming me down and she always know what to say.

Thank God she's my roommate.

Also,
Updates on Olamide....

Arggggh where do I start?
She's practically living here now and I dont really mind.

I like when she smiles or blushes.
Her one sided dimples are always in show, i always want to see them.

Besides that she's been getting really touchy lately. She touches my arm or laps and leave it there for sometime then goes back to what she was doing.

It drives my nuts when she does that.
I just want to hold her hand and kiss her dimples. Ha! God help me!

Or when she falls asleep on my bed and spoon me.
I feel her hard nipples on my back and imagine my hand on them.
I would never do that though... I'm not really sure if I should even try to shoot my shot.

I don't want to try though, what if she's homophobic and outs me to everyone.
What if she's just a touchy person in general.

Sigh, all this is just frustrating.

I like how things are sha.
I like the attention I'm getting from her.
I like the way she stares at me like she can see into my soul, it makes me feel special.

Sigh....
I wish I could read her mind.
So I'll know....

Anyhoo, this is how my week went.
Later I guess.