THE DIARY

ENTRY 13

Hi,

I think I feel much better.
This week has been a bit better than last week.
I finally got to rest a bit and look after my mental health.
With all the overwhelming things that happened last week I'm surprised I'm even still sane.

I have issues with changes, I hate them because then I'll have to get used to the said "change" again.
It's not something I can explain.

Unrelated but someone once told me I may have OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder).
I don't know how, "not getting used to changes" relates with OCD.

Umm..

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I'll tell you how my week went;

I didn't attend classes but it's not like we actually had any because of the tests and all.
Luckily mine ended last week.

I spoke with Damilare and Favour over the phone. Well, they called to check up on me.
We had a group call.
It was kind of sweet, they made me smile.

We talked about how our tests went and about our upcoming matriculation.
They seemed so pumped up and excited about it, I was just "meh".
I mean why do people get so excited about it?
I don't think I'll go for it and even if I do, I won't stay out too long.

Just the thought of seeing many strangers there gives me anxiety.
Yikes!!

.............
Nothing really exciting happened.

Well,

Except for when I saw Claudia's message.

I was playing chess online when I saw the notification.

My heart skipped a beat.

I mean we stopped talking for a while, it felt like whatever sort of relationship we had was dead.

I left my game and replied her immediately.
We have been texting non-stop since then.

We talked about everything and anything. It was like we never at some point stopped talking.

It made me feel special, plus she spammed me with her cute pictures.
I didn't even have to ask.

My stomach did some flips.

Even if all my crushes let me down, at least I have Claudia right?

Talking about crushes,
I haven't heard anything from Promise so far, it's not like I bothered to text her also.

And let's not start about that Olamide issue.
It'll take time to get over it, but it's not her fault.
I mean, she didn't say she was into me and we aren't dating.
But why did it hurt to bad?

Just thinking about it breaks my heart.
I thought we had a connection, sigh!

Well, at least Claudia came to my rescue.

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Those shitty things aside,
I'm proud to say my health is better.

Also,
Aisha is acting a bit suspicious. I can't pin point exactly why.
But it's not my business sha...

I just hope it has nothing to do with Olamide because-
It's just sad.

I just want everything to go back to the way it was.

Any hoo..
I need to prepare for next week.
I have a feeling something spontaneous is going to happen and I don't think I'm going to like it.

Bye for now.