THE DIARY

ENTRY 10

Hey,

My weekly entries are always fun to write because something exciting always happen.

Writing about my experiences feel like I'm reliving them and its a great feeling.

School as usual is very tiring.
But our test is fast approaching, so everyone is getting serious.
When I say fast approaching, I mean next two weeks.
Haha....people are funny sha.
I mean its two weeks away, I dont start intensive reading till 3 days prior or maybe its just me.

Anyways, that's all people have been talking about.
What a serious department!! And its also probably because we are in our first year so people are on edge to get a good grade.

I have been reading, no matter how stressful the day is i always go through my books. Yes...I'm book smart. But I didnt really do well in my JAMB.
Gosh!! I didnt even read for it.
Lord knows haha
But I thank God for my 254, at least I got into the department of my choice.

Any who, because of the whole "test" issue the class was packed with students making classes more unbearable. Sigh....

Asides school, my friends and I are getting closer.
Damilare is acting more like himself now so I think he's getting over me, thank goodness.
And Favour hehehe she most definitely has a thing for Dami.
They'll be so good together.

............

Claudia and I have not been talking and its all my fault.
No I am not ghosting her.
I just need some time from all this-
I need space too.
I'll probably text her next week, I'm sure she'll understand right?

Olamide, the crush that I'm closest to.
Sigh...
She makes it so hard for me to ignore her.
I tried o!! I really did.
She kinda figured out I was ignoring and avoiding her so she confronted me.

Boy was it awkward!! Plus my anxiety decided to say hello at that particular moment.
She noticed I was finding it hard to breath and hyperventilating even though I tried to control it.

She then embraced me.
Oml!! She actually thought it would help..
Haha my heart was racing even more.

But then I calmed down.
I mean why wouldn't I? She smelled so good and this was the first time I was this close to her.
The hug lasted for about 2 minutes and I wasn't complaining.
She didnt want to let go either, so why not?

She then released me and we were both smiling, I thanked her but she just shrugged it off.

Ever since then it's like we became closer...I don't know how to explain it.
She's the first person to actually help with my anxiety...sigh
I'm doomed aren't I?

She dosent want to leave my side now.
Even Aisha is noticing our interactions.
I think she knows.
But-- let's not go there.

..........

Promise ahem*ahem*
My most recent crush....

She found out our hostels are beside each other.
So we go to classes together.
Imagine walking with her so close and then sitting with her.
God!!
She's a real beauty.
And there's just something about the way she talks...its like she pulling you into a trance.
Or when she's thinking and does a cute pout.
She's a smart ass also..she answers questions in class sometimes.

Being the course rep and all, she tends to be very busy.
But she still makes time for everyone.

All week, we go to class together but we may not come back together.
But that's fine, at least I get to hang out with her.

......

Today took a weird turn though.
Olamide asked me what I thought of the LGBTQ+ community while we were eating lunch.
Aisha wasn't in as usual, I need to know where that girl goes.

Me being bisexual and not sure of her sexuality either just shrugged it off.
But she shocked me sha.
She told me she's a lesbian and she wasn't sure she should tell me.

Gosh...the breath I didnt know I was holding was released.
I smiled at her and told her that I'm bisexual.
She squealed!!

And embraced me.
I think she has a problem with personal space.

Her one sided dimple was in show and I wanted nothing but to kiss her as she smiled at me.
The problem is ive not had my first kiss yet arggghhhh.
I'm inexperienced sigh

We talked about the struggles of being queer and made jokes...it was awesome
Especially now I know I have a shot with her.

But then she received a call and disappeared... I haven't seen her since then.
I hope she's okay sha.

Even Aisha, she's been gone since 9am this morning and she's not yet back.
Her phone's switched off.
Sigh!!what's wrong with them?

So yeah, I'm on my bed worried about the both of them.
I hope they come back soon.

Anyways....
Thats all for now.
Later.