silence - nct, norenmin

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"wait, no! i mean... jeno!"

the korean male jumped back, staring at his boyfriend with angry eyes.

"so, you did moan his name." he said

"yeah, but... i didn't mean it."

"that's even worse." jeno scoffed, fumbling around to find his shirt. "you were thinking about him. while we were having an intimate moment."

"jeno, no!" renjun tried explaining. "it's just that... huh..."

jeno rolled his eyes, finding renjun's abandoned shirt on the floor and throwing it right to his face.

"wear that and get out of my house."

"jeno! no!"

"move your ass renjun. i don't have time for your bullshit." jeno spat, not managing to hide the disappointment he felt at the moment.

"can't you let me explain?"

"because you actually have something to say?!" jeno yelled in frustration.

jeno leaned his back against the bedroom door, leaving renjun on the bed on his own.

"please, don't doubt my love for you..." renjun begged, earning a scoff from his boyfriend.

"no, of course not. my boyfriend just moaned another boy's name and i'm going to believe he still loves me?!"

"i still love you jeno!"

"renjun. get out." jeno told firmly, scaring renjun.

"i do love you. more than anyone else... but..."

"so there is a 'but'..." jeno crossed his arms over his chest.

"jaemin is confusing me..." renjun explained, looking at his lap.

"jaemin... it's all about jaemin now." jeno said. "jaemin this... jaemin that... he's intriguing me... he's confusing me..."

"i am telling the truth jeno."

"good for you." jeno spat.

renjun stayed silent, his eyes never leaving his lap.

he could feel tears forming there.

"i think i like him, jeno." renjun told. "but i still love you. you're still my boyfriend and- "

"stop talking, renjun. i can't bear it anymore."

"b-but... j-jeno..."

"hear me out, renjun. the day you told me about you being poly was the day i understood our relationship would be problematic." jeno told rather harshly.

"b-but you can't blame me for something you knew!" renjun stated, tears cascading on his cheeks.

"i'm not blaming you." jeno informed. "i am the one to blame. i shouldn't have accepted this relationship knowing it would end like this."

renjun didn't answer, bursting into tears the second jeno spoke.

"what does he have that i don't?" jeno asked. "am i not enough for you?"

"of course, you are! he's different. i like him for different reasons that i love you."

jeno sighed, looking at renjun sobbing on his bed.

"please, get out, renjun." he said calmly.

"jeno, that doesn't mean that i don't love you anymore."

"i know. you mentioned it a few times already."

renjun sniffed, wiping a few tears away. "i wish you'd see what i see in him. he would complete us so much..."

"but maybe that we don't need to be completed." jeno answered. "get out now."

renjun didn't argue more.

he stood up, walking towards jeno that had opened his bedroom door.

"i love you jeno." renjun said, bottom lip quivering.

"i need a bit of time to think." jeno replied.

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"jaemin, is everything alright?" jaemin's mother asked, looking at her son that was playing with his food, a sad pout decorating his lips.

"mmh..." he replied nonchalantly.

jaemin was feeling downer than ever at the moment.

neither renjun nor jeno was responding to his text messages.

he had sent plenty of them.

and both boys had read every one of those.

but they never replied.

were they bored of jaemin?

had they understood he was nothing more than a mute and awkward kid?

now that jaemin was finally feeling better, feeling ready to open up again...

they had crushed any of his hopes...

he was still the same.

the world didn't want him to change.

"what's bothering you, sweetheart?" jaemin's mother tried again.

"nothing, really."

"jaemin... you're not your usual bubbly self..."

"have i ever been a bubbly person since the accident?" jaemin asked, sounding meaner than expected.

"of course, you did. you were so happy yesterday, and the day before."

jaemin sighed, looking at his mother in the eye.

"it was just a phase. i never changed and i never will. i'll stay the same broken person forever..."