After school we all headed to my place , the drive was quiet and awkward.
I burry my face on my hands trying to figure out what to do next , screw it i dont know. We all got out and walked inside my house. I turned on the lights and opened all the courtains to let some sun light in.
"This place is big dont you get lonely" Lucas asks putting his backpack on the couch and i shrug "with the time u get used to it i guess you dont feel it anymore" i answered and catalinas gaze went to her phone before she cussed at herself making me rise my eyebrow.
"I have a project due tmrw with a friend and-" i stopped before she could finish with a nod "it will be fun , text me when u get there safe ok?" i said and she gave me a sweet smile before walking out and rushing to her friends house.
Now its just me and lucas and this is uncomfortable enough, whatever we ended up ordering some sushi and watching his favorite serie , honestly kinda boring but i guess it was ok? i just dont get how he can watch this over and over again.
His arm wraps around my shoulders all of sudden but he pretends he doesnt realize making me smile, i lay my head on his chest , listening to his heartbeat and closing my eyes. I feel him reach out for the control and turning off the tv , wrapping both his arms around me and pulling me on top of him catching me off guard. I hesitate for a minute before relaxing on top of him. I don know what im doing but it feels right.
"Would u be with a girl that doesnt give u sex?" i ask and his eyes goes down to me, while my eyes met his
"Well it is her choice i guess?" he says and i give him a short nod "Maybe alex cheated because i never let him fuck me , i mean im a virgin and it sounds scary to do it and for it to hurt." i went on and he pulled me closer.
"Its not bad if the guy knows how to push ur buttons and is nice" he says and that left me thinking but i just closed my eyes. "Then im all down to lose my virginity with someone like you." i said without even thinking my words.
