With All My Spark → Transformers

Reassurance

*I don't own Transformers or anything affiliated with Transformers. I only own my original characters and plots. All rights go to Michael Bay and Steven Spielberg.*

The extra three hours didn't help me at all. Originally, I had planned to go to sleep, but my thoughts were absolutely everywhere and it prevented my nap from happening. The only thing that I was able to do was sit in my living room and wait on Adalyn and my dad to show up while I sat here just thinking about all of this.

The fear had set in the moment Ratchet had told me I was expecting a child, but after returning home a new feeling had arose inside me. I felt an overwhelming amount of love inside my body and there was no doubt that it was unconditional love for this unborn child. I was still incredibly scared though. I didn't know how to take care of a baby and I didn't know how to handle the pregnancy process. I didn't want to get fat and I definitely didn't want Ironhide to see me get fatter.

I just wished that my mom was here to help me. Hell, I wish that Annabelle was here too. It would be so incredible to see the way an almost six year old girl would interact with her niece or nephew. I could see now just how amazed she would be by the little thing. It hurt to think about, but at least I had my dad and Adalyn to help me through this. And I could almost guarantee Carly would have her fun in the fashion department whether or not it was a boy or girl.

A knock on the door ripped me away from my thoughts and I knew immediately that it was my dad and Adalyn. I rolled my eyes. They knew they could just come in, but they still knocked. I took another bite of the cookie dough ice cream I had been munching on and called for them to come in. The duo walked through the door and Adalyn ran over to me and pulled me into her arms and squishing my carton of ice cream. She pulled away and I frowned, staring at the carton.

"You hurt my ice cream," I whined.

She chuckled before removing it from my hands. I frowned harder as she sat it down on the coffee table in front of me. Before long her and my dad were sitting on either side of me.

"Pops told me about the issue you were having. I know you're scared, but you know that I'm going to be here for you the entire time no matter what," Adalyn spoke. She grabbed my hand and gave it a gentle squeeze.

I smiled at her. "Thank you so much. I'm just so confused as to how this happened. Ratchet never gave me any specific details about it. I just should have figured he would likely experiment with it."

"How far along are you?" she asked me.

"Almost eight weeks according to Ratchet's calculations."

"Is this why you were crying over your mom?" my dad asked me.

I looked at him and nodded. "I don't know how I'm supposed to handle this, dad. I've never been pregnant before. I don't know how to be pregnant. She does, but she's not here to help guide me through it and I just don't know what to do about it."

My dad frowned and pulled me into his arms in an attempt to calm the tears that had begun to fall. I wrapped my arms tightly around his body and just cried. Everything I had just told him was true. My dad could possibly attempt to guide me, but he couldn't give me the assurance about it that my mom could.

"I'm so sorry, Lea. I'm going to be here for you as much as I possibly can and you know that. I know that I won't be able to help you like your mom ever could, but I'm going to try my best and I hope you'll let me do that, baby," my dad spoke, his voice strained. I could only assume that he had started crying as well.

"Of course I'll let you. You and Adalyn both. I know damn well Doctor Hughes here is going to attempt to take all good things away from me," I sniffed, managing to let out a little laugh.

"Well, of course I am. You've already wronged yourself by eating raw cookie dough. I better not have to take another carton away from you," she teased.

I frowned. "No more cookie dough ice cream?"

"No. Not for the next six months. Your baby may be half Ironhide, but it is also half Azalea meaning that it is just as much human as you are," she answered.

"Care to give me a quick run down over what I can't have so I can go upstairs and cry for the next six months?" I baited. I hadn't actually expected an answer, but I got one anyway.

"Well, don't eat raw cookie dough or any raw dough for that matter. Make sure your meat is cooked completely or you can't eat it. Avoid eating hot dogs or deli meats and I truly do apologize for this, but no seafood," she started.

My eyes widened. "Why? Seafood is like my life. Aside from chicken, of course, but still."

My dad laughed and Adalyn continued. "It along with the hot dogs and deli meat are prone to listeria monocytogenes which causes listeriosis. That can result in a miscarriage, stillbirth, or major health problems."

I clutched my abdomen, feeling protective over my unborn baby's life. Was this what it was like to already be a mother?

"Continue," I instructed her.

"Don't drink alcohol or unpasteurized juices. I'm actually really thankful you chose not to drink back in the Bahamas. That could've been bad. Also, avoid caffeine from coffee and tea. I know you don't drink soda, so I'm not really worried about that."

I blinked. I had just had a sweet tea this morning. "But, I just had a big sweet tea this morning."

She chuckled. "It's okay. Just stop now. You'll be okay," she assured me.

I sighed in relief, but a new thought came to mind. "What am I supposed to do about Ironhide?" I asked the two of them.

"You have to tell him, of course. It won't be much longer until you can't keep it from him. You're going to grow," my dad told me.

I frowned. "But, he doesn't know that his holoform can reproduce. What if he thinks I was unfaithful? What if he hates me? What if he doesn't even want it? What if after I tell him he doesn't even want me anymore? What if he leaves me?"

My breath caught in my throat at the thought. I wouldn't be able to deal with life if Ironhide were to leave me and I was more than serious about that. He was my absolute everything and I needed him. If he left me, especially now, I wouldn't know what to do.

"You need to quit overthinking. That damn Autobot loves you so much it's ridiculous, Azalea. He'd never leave you like that," my dad told me as a matter-of-factly.

I sighed. The possibility was still there though; I knew it was slim, but it was there. I pulled my cardigan over my body and hugged my knees to my chest. This was still so insane.

"I just don't know."

My dad pulled me to his side again. "Tell him when you're ready. Just don't wait too long, okay? You need to tell him before your body does."

I nodded and hugged him tighter before grabbing Adalyn and pulling her over to the two of us. Words couldn't describe just how much I loved these two. .well these three. I'd only found out a few hours ago, but like I had said, I already loved this child more than I ever thought I could love somebody, no offense to Hide or everyone else for that matter. I could already feel the bond forming between us and no matter how scared I was, it truly did warm my heart.

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