Silver Eyes Chronicles: The Journey Begins Trilogy: Book One: The Reunion

Part One: Peyene

16 Years Later

"I often wonder how long I could stand the judgment of others, especially if it is something that I cannot understand why.

Since I had been a young girl, no, perhaps ever since I've arrived in Peyene, carried by my adoptive mother, having found me at the Azanend Lake as an abandoned babe, I have been stared at, gossiped about and avoided like a mad outbreak from some disease unable to be cured. I know naught of who I am, what I am or where I come from. Oftentimes, I look into a mirror reflection in water and ask myself, "Who am I?"

I ask myself that same question since I've grew old enough to understand words and to speak them. But I am no closer to finding the answer than when I've first asked it.

I watch others from afar; all with someone in their lives. Husbands, wives, children, mothers, fathers, siblings, grandchildren, friends, comrades. I stand outside that circle, feeling like an outsider. A place that I may have placed myself in because I find that am afraid to deny that I am different. I am afraid to to tell myself that. I am afraid to say that I am not normal. I am afraid to say it to anyone, even to myself.

More than that, why am I here in a world that I don't understand? But I also must realize that despite these feelings that I have locked inside myself, I remind myself that I still have people who care about me, who love me for the person I am. I will be forever grateful to Sayeter and Evadane, the young couple who found me and adopted me as their own child. I will be forever grateful to Kirena, my sister more in bond than blood.

For it is truly Kir who understands my dilemma, who understands what is underneath the mental mask that I wear.

I am unhappy. I am afraid. I am angry. I am confused. Maybe I am feeling these things because I still have to understand the concept of acceptance, but how can I accept such a claim when my own parents abandoned me? How can I accept the fact that the couple who borne me did not even want to keep me? Even today, I ask myself that same question that comes to most adopted children. "Why me? Why would anyone give me away?"

Why? Why? Why?

That one small question continues to pound at my mind, but I am still no closer to answering that small yet so big a question.

Still, every time that I come home, I remind myself that I am loved here and that I will not be judged in my own home. I remind myself of the bond that I share with my sister, of the many things we've shared in past years. But in my heart, I know one thing for certain. Someday, my life will change, and I will find out the answers to which I seek."

Naria, formerly of Peyene

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This is the first part, or passage narrated by Naria. Like a journal entry, it's just basically her feelings written down.

I, myself used to keep a journal but I have to admit my handwriting is absolutely atrocious. Which is why I prefer typing so I can read my own writing.

Ok, I'm rambling but I hope that I will able to see what I can do to make some improvements on the book.

Thanks guys!

Stay safe, stay positive and keep writing!