All My Life: A Harry Styles Fan Fiction

Chapter 24

Back to Maddie's pov! By the way, get the song "the moment I knew" by Taylor swift ready to play when I tell you!

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It's been four days, six hours, 37 minutes since Harry left me at the hospital. Not like I care or anything.

Okay, I'll admit, Harry saying those words hurt me. And now, here I am. Slouched down in a wheelchair, cold eyes, cold heart. The best part about today? (That was sarcasm, by the way) It's my birthday. Eighteen this day. And I'm stuck in a hospital, pretty much paralyzed, though I can withstand weight on my legs for a few seconds, and heart broken. It's a great life I live isn't it?

Your eighteenth birthday is supposed to be amazing. It's supposed to be something to remember but we all know I'm just going to want to forget it.

My family has visited me everyday since the accident, staying as long as possible. I'm honestly glad they are here because if I was left alone, I would be insane. I'm just.. How do I say it? Depressed? Heart broken? Sad? Angry? I don't know. But, what I do know, I didn't deserve what Harry said to me, no matter what I had done. We are supposed to be in in love, for Gods sake! Or, were. I don't know at this point. But, I hate him. Well, I'm trying to. The thing is, I just can't bring myself to do it. I have loved him too long to just let all of this go. I pray every night before I sleep that he will come back to me and apologize. That he will make everything right again. We all know that I will forgive him. I need him to much, even if he doesn't feel the same.

I just have this gut feeling that this won't happen.

Most days I wander through the hospital halls looking sad and forlorn. Because that's what I am. Most of the nurses love me, seeing as I'm one of the more normal people here and I can hold a conversation. They all know what Harry did, and they try to cheer me up, but as you'd expect, it doesn't work. "You are better than him!" They encourage me. "Just move on. That's best." They advise me. I mostly just tune their voices out.

At the moment, I am parked in from of room 309, which is empty currently. I probably look psycho, sitting here staring at the floor. But who cares? Maybe I am crazy. I don't know anymore.

"Miss Richards!" Louise, a cheery nurse who has been with me since I arrived here swings my wheelchair around to face her.

"Oh, hi Louise."

"Happy birthday!" She giggles. I let her have a half hearted smile which quickly returns to my now permanent frown.

"Thanks.."

"We have a surprise for you! Well not all of us, but your family set it up!"

I'm really not in the mood for a surprise today. I'd rather lay in bed and watch the Notebook.

"Well, lets go!" Louise grabbed my chair and pushed me down the hall.

"Where is this surprise?" I question.

"Can't tell you!"

Joy.

We pull up in front of the cafeteria. What could possibly be in here? It's not that big. The walls are greenish gray, the floors are white tile which match the white ceiling.

(PLAY THE SONG HERE)

Louise pushes the big wooden doors open to reveal a huge party. There must have been one hundred people in here! Streamers hung from the ceiling and blue tablecloths covered the old, plastic tables that occupied the room. Men in tuxedos milled around the room, serving appetizers. The usual food line had been transformed into a gourmet buffet. A huge sound system and DJ is set up in the corner, looking very impressive.

This was so amazing for my parents to do all of this. I honestly appreciated it. I just wish I could enjoy it.

I should have just been satisfied with the party, who was there. But how can I be when the one person that matters to me, was absent?

My mom and dad rushed up to me with huge smiles on their faces. They looked so overjoyed, like they were little kids who had gotten all they wanted for Christmas.

"Sooooo, Maddie, how do you like it?!"

I answered my Mom in the best way possible.

"This is amazing, Mom. Thank you so much, Mom, Dad! I love it!"

I must not have been very convincing considering my mouth was smiling, but my eyes were cold.

I can't help it, so shouldn't somebody help me?

Both parents eyed me, then shared a knowing glance, then one of them spoke up.

"Good!" My dad beamed. "Now come here, there is someone I want you to see!"

Could it be Harry? My pulse was racing. It had to be, but it wouldn't be. I didn't know what to think, my mind was jumping all over the place.

As we made our way to the corner of the room, my mom leaned over to me and whispered something in my ear.

"I know, Maddie. I know what you want. I'm here for you, darling. I know that you are heart broken. I know it all."

We arrived at the back of the room which was surrounded by a wall of people. They quickly separated to reveal something I should have been much more excited about. But I wasn't.

Sitting at a table was all of my friends from home.

Emma, Shame, Ben, all of the others.

Not Harry.

"Maddie!" They all scream and run over to give me bear hugs.

I grin at them, trying to be happy. Come on Maddie, you can do this. It's only for a few hours. Then, you can go back to your dark hole of depression. It's not that hard.

"Maddie!" Emma attacked me and I winced in pain. It was a slight comfort for her to be here, though it could be better. We pulled apart and she looked me in the eyes.

"Where's Harry?" She asked suspiciously.

The pain in my stomach returned and I almost broke down right there. My mouth opened to form words, but no sound came out. Instead, I shook my head, no, and told her we could talk later.

I said this wouldn't be hard. But it was so hard. Though, I pulled through. I spent the next two hours mingling, eating, laughing. All of it just a big show I put on for everyone. The guests didn't suspect anything. They thought I seemed like my old self, which is what I wanted. But I'm not my old self. And I won't be, until he comes to me. I need him, and if he won't come to me, I will come to him.

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Hellleerrrrr

Another depressing chapter... Whoops! But it will be happy soon, I swear! Eeeee wasn't that song perfect?!!!!!!!!

Funny part is, I wrote the chapter, then found the song so I didn't base this off of the song!

Okay so haylor drama... I'm not putting my opinion on here cause ya know DRAMA but just know, I am a directioner forever and I will love harry till the end.

But how do y'all feel about it? Let me know!

Love you guys!

Oh, and happy new year!!!!!

Sam