Summer memoir (YiZhan FF)

Nineteen

AN: please forgive me for some typo and grammatical errors ahead, i will edit this as soon as i have the time hehe, enjoy reading~

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Jingyi carefully took his steps as he watches Yibo run and hop from trees to trees. He's nervous for going on this adventure alone and leave his friends behind, he was scared of what might happen to him, but he thought that it would be worth the risk if he knew that their Senior Wei is safe, he might not say it vocally, but he was grateful and full of respects to the couple, they took care of them and teaches them what Gusu failed to teach, the knowledge they gain from the experience, especially if it's Wei Wuxian that teaches them, even when in danger, he always makes it look fun.

They were a balance that compliments each other. They learned so much from the two of them and he knew that even if Lan Qiren objects of the couple and Wei Wuxian's ways of cultivation, Lan Qiren sometimes agree and approve of Wei Wuxian's suggestions, because Wei Wuxian was once, one of the prominent young masters before and his intelligence is very useful as of this day.

He was following Yibo for a whole day now and he's thankful for his Senior Wei's talisman that could hide ones presence. Wei wuxian gave each one of them before just incase they would need it someday.

Yibo, who was oblivious of Jingyi's presence was also distracted, he can't get Zhan out of his mind, wondering if he's alright and still alive.

His heart was aching literally, as if it was being clenched, he feels so heavy just by thinking that Zhan wasn't there by his side.

He stopped for a moment and closed his eyes and tried to clear his mind and calm down, he was sweating cold and his breathing was unstable. he's on top of a tree branch and the wind was making his clothes sway along with it, he could feel the cold breeze of the air but suddenly it became warm, as if he was embraced.

He knew he succeeded on calming his soul and Lan Zhan was now calmed down. His heart felt lighter but still, the worry is there. His breathing became stable and then he leaned on the tree and sighed. If he's still a normal person with an average stamina, he would certainly faint, thank goodness Lan Wangji is a strong cultivator and his stamina is no joke! you know what i mean, even Wei Wuxian couldn't keep up with that stamina of his. Everyday is Everyday.. yes?

He brushed off the dirts on his clothes before he continued his search even though he doesn't know where to find him. He just blindly follow where his Instincts tell him to go.

It was now dawn and still he couldn't find any traces of Zhan, or those shadows that took him away. Jingyi who was silently searching for his Senior Wei too was exhausted, he leaned on a tree and closed his eyes. He knows that Yibo would finally take a break since they were already looking for Zhan for two days. He feels lucky that he hasn't even been found out until now.

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Zhan sat down on his bed absentmindedly, he's in a different room now and it comes with a fluffy and spacious bed. The woman told him, who introduced herself as Zhao Yulan, the queen of the Valley of the spirits, that this room was once his. This is where he stayed at for those sixteen years that he spent as a spirit.

He's now calmed and he thought about ways on how to get out of that world sooner. It's been two days and he still can't find anything that can help him go back to where Yibo is.

While lost in his thoughts, the door of his room bursts open and revealed Zhao Yelin, daughter of Yulan and the princess of this world. The one who screamed at his face a few days ago.

She's frowning and her eyes were puffy as if she's been crying.

" Y-You.. " she pointed at him, her voice was hoarse and croaky.

Zhan who was a bit confused, felt pity towards her, afterall she just fell inlove.

Zhan, who looks at Yelin with Pity, thought that it was Wei Ying who loves Lan Zhan.. but him.. he's Xiao Zhan, he's a man.. and he should fall in love with a woman.

But then, why does his chest hurts just by thinking of him trying to love another person that isn't Lan Wangji? Or was he even thinking about Lan Wangji? Is he really certain that the feeling he has right now wasn't really his? Because all he could think about was Yibo, not the one with a long black hair and a ribbon on his forehead and wears white clothes, but the one who he came with into this world, the one whom he hated at first, the one who wears a helmet and rides motorcycles, the one who carried him when he couldn't walk, the one whom he shares this troubles.. the only one who could make his heart flutter with just a smile. It was Yibo, the one with a short hair and tanned milky skin.. yes it's him.

"Is there a problem? " He asked Yelin when he realized he was staring into space for too long and not even realized that Yelin was talking in front of him.

"Xian Xian.. why? I could give you everything but why did you choose to marry man? Why did you marry him instead of me? Why did you forget about me?! " She asked bitterly.

Zhan wanted to roll his eyes, not minding the questions Yelin threw at him.

'what's wrong with her? First it was Ying Ying and now she calls me Xian Xian, if she calls me that one more time i swear– '

"Answer me! I waited for you to come back but how could you?! With what you're doing right now, it disgust me, i disgust people like you! I know you were only after his fame and money and it's sickening, i thought you were different, but now i know that you're just a lowly bastard who had the chance to live again and spread your dumbness! I think you don't even lov– " she screamed but Zhan cutted her off.

"I married him because i love him!  " he answered straightly to her face. She went speechless with his answer. He looked directly at her and she suddenly felt nervous.

Zhan looked at her grimly, with a shake of his head he said, "Well.. if my presence disgust you, why did you bother coming here? If i disgust you so much then let me go back to where i was, let me go back to my husband, because i know he will burn this place and leave nothing behind when he learned what you just said.
He won't tolerate your shits and would even be willing to cut your tongue. You're the one who's sickening, with your attitude and judgements based on what you came up with that doesn't even have solid proofs, you're the one who's making a fool out of your self.
Now if you don't have anything good to say you are free to walk out the door and don't even come back to look for me, I'm not the Wei Wuxian you used to know, my gratitude and gratefulness to your family ended when i came back to the world. I have nothing to do with you anymore.  "

Zhan saw how shocked Yelin was with everything he said, yes he knew he was harsh but this girl need to realize something. Just because they had a past, he will be hers. No, That's not how it works, he will only have one soulmate in this lifetime, and even in the next life and his life after that. Only one, and it will never be her.

She was weeping and looked at him angrily one last time before walking out of his room.

Zhan sighed when she was no longer within his sight. His blood was boiling so he closed his eyes and started to cultivate to calm his mind.

While cultivating, he thought about trying something. Telepathy.

It seems impossible but nothing would be lost if he tried and failed.

He would try to contact Yibo and tell him he's alright.. he might be so worried and lost right now, after all, Yibo could only rely on him because they're the only ones who can understand each other.

" I hope this works " said Zhan as he started to practice telepathy.