Kidnapped Hearts | ✓

Chapter 14

Emily's POV

Sometimes I wonder why I constantly put myself in the same situations over and over again. Nothing would change, I'd just keep getting hurt, wishing that I'll be enough .

Maybe he was right. Dreams kill the most. Everytime, everytime I think that finally I found my happiness they left me without an explanation. I should learn not to make someone my happiness. I should learn that some things will never change.

Why am I not enough? I mean why can't someone just love me? Why do they love me when just when they're alone? Why do I always feel bad when I didn't do anything wrong ?

I wish I hadn't trusted him. Or anyone. Look at me now... broken as never before. But I should be the problem , if everyone has left. I mean they're not wrong. I don't like myself too.

Probably Sophie, Alyssa and Betty will leave too. I mean why shouldn't them? Why can't I be happy?

Why can't I be like other girls? I know that not everyone is happy, but at least they have someone who can love them at their worst. And me?

Usually I love them at their worst because I know how it feels to be alone. They can hurt me thousands times but I still can give them a second chance.

I wish I could sleep forever.

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Daniel's POV

* Enough!! * she writes and leaves the group.

What did I do? Why did I act like that? Why can't I control myself when I'm mad?

* Look what you two did! Are you happy for that? You all broke her ! Why did you add her at the group when you would act like these? * Will says

As much as I don't want him to be right, he is right. Why ? Just why ? She loves me and from the jealousy I had I broke her. She was broken... but I broke her even more.

* Hahahah do you like her? * Ava writes

* Stop Ava !! Stop !! He is right ! *  I reply

* what? C'mon Daniel she's just a nerd... * she writes and gets on my nerves

* Stop talking like that for her or we will never talk again ! * I threat her

Why didn't I say that before? Now she would be the most happy girl, just by a small gesture

* I texted her ! Now I'm going to leave the group too. I'm disgusted by y'all ! * Will says

* You did what??? * I am mad now

* I texted her. * he says

* delete the message *

* Why should I? She's broken now and she needs a shoulder to cry on. * he is right. He is fucking right and it's my fault. But if she needs someone , he would be me.

* I said delete the message! *

* You think you can control me? Hahahah ridiculous. You broke her now you want her to come to you? Right? *

He is right. I hurted her now I don't even let people help her

* I said what I said *

* And I said that I'm not going to do what you told me to do. * He says and leaves the group.

I leave the group too.

* Emily are you okay? I'm sorry ! I don't know what I was thinking * I text her but she has cut off the internet.

She's at next house. But if I go there what am I going to say to Rose? That I broke her daughter's heart and she has no idea that I did?

I was afraid of love, of loving her, because they say that what you love kills you the most. Afraid of her breaking me, I broke my entire world instead.

I should recover this. It's my duty .

I call her a hundred times, but no reply.

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Emily's POV

What if he wasn't okay? What if he was broken and he didn't want to show it? What if he is just afraid ?

But do those justify the fact that he broke me?

What if he is like this? Then...

How many times am I going to justify him, just because I love the person who is holding the knife?

Maybe it is my fault... I should have started to heal him .

I know which are his broken parts, but I didn't do nothing. I was waiting for him to heal me when I was seeing the broken boy I love.

He isn't the only one who made a mistake. But if he really loves me... where is he?

Why haven't he texted or called me?

...

I open phone and I have 10 unread messages from Will and 1 from him. Just one. He is going to justify his actions just with one message.

I choose to open Will's messages

* I'm okay ! Don't worry! I just needed some time to think it straight * I reply and within seconds he replies me back

* Do you want to talk with someone? If so, would you like to talk with me? * the truth is that I need someone to turn to right now.

* I know it's a pandemic time, but would you like meeting at a local? Just two of us? *

* Send me the address please * I reply without even minding it. I don't even know if my mom would let me.

...

"Mom can I go out for a walk?" I ask her

" out? Emily you have heard the news about Covid, haven't you?!" She says and unfortunately she's right

" Yeah, I know but please! I want just to make any friend" I didn't say I'm going to meet Will because she not even that wouldn't let me, but also she would have made a long lecture.

"Okay... just don't forget to put a mask" she says and I hug her

...

* Would you like me to take you? * He has written

* No, thank you! I'm on my way * I say as I see 50 missed calls by Daniel

I don't want to face him, not right now...

* Emily are you okay? I'm sorry ! I don't know what I was thinking * He has written.

I still love him, but he shouldn't think that sorry is the magic word that can fix everything.

Not for me at least.

* Leave me alone!  I'm fine! * I reply to him

...

I called a taxi and now I'm going to meet Will, but now I think its a bad idea. I mean he is polite, but... I don't know him.

While I'm on my way to go to meet him, I'm dreaming the life Daniel and I could have...

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" Emily! " Will says as he hugs me. I hug him too, but I can't feel the same like in Daniel's arms... I wish I could

To be sincere Will is more handsome than on video call, but how can my eyes see the beauty of his eyes , when they're blinded by Daniel's?

" Hmm hi! " I say and Daniel calls me but I decide not to open it