Sweetie

Knowledge

Next day 5:39 a.m
Pulling up to the house, I know I fucked up a lot, I know I did wrong by her from the jump so by her telling me to leave her alone this time , I understood but I couldn't leave her alone because I wanted to be with her.

It's earlier in the morning I know but I couldn't sleep none last night and I really ain't have anywhere to go because I was staying with her for the last two weeks, but before then I was staying to whatever bitch house I wanted to lay up with.

So I had a key, unlocking the door, I turnt the alarm off quickly.
Peeping in on my kids , I loved my babies and that's one thing nobody could take from me.
Removing my shirt, I headed to her room.
Standing to the door, I watched her sleep.
Taking off my shoes and pants, I watched her.

Getting in the bed I cupped her.
Kissing her neck, she took a deep breath.
Getting under the covers with her I just cupped her body again.
Smell her clean skin ,she smelt so good.
Her skin felt good on my skin , we looked damn good together and we make beautiful babies.

Kissing her ears, she was woke by now but wasn't saying anything.

Last night I did some fucked up shit.
Bonifa was blowing my phone up all yesterday and the night before but I was ignoring her stupid ass because she had did all this stupid shit.
So as I'm coming out the club around 11 last night she walks up on Bradley and I talking about how sorry she was and she just wanted to make it right with me.

Bradley hated her, like he wanted to kill her alone time ago because she was ratchet as fuck and because she was a hoe who we done ran trains on plenty of times so I didn't know why she wanted to come for Nov and my relationship but never Toni and Bradley but then again, Toni was crazy so that hoe knew better.

So we get the bitch in the car and take her to the safe house , I remember her saying she set me up and it all made sense because I had just left this bitches house before I got popped .

So we just left her at the safe with 10 nasty niggas who loved pussy , we told them to do what they wanted to do with her, she was a freak and free.
Got a call about 4 this morning saying she wasn't dead but she wasn't talking either.
One of the niggas said she ate so much dick she had choked, it wasn't my problem, I told them to do what they wanted with her bitch ass.

I'm sorry I cooed as she just laid there.
Wrapping my arms around her I just laid with her.

12 p.m
Waking up to both of my babies laying under me and she's laying next to them ,I was tried .
Kissing Deja she laughed as she's eating some apple slices, what's up Cia? I cooed kissing her little face as she ate her apple.

Looking over at her she watched tv.
I wasn't gonna force anything on her but I wasn't leaving her either so I guess I'm just a asshole.

Getting up I went to pee and shower.

After showering , I went back into her room. My kids are now playing on the floor with a shit load of toys.
Where mommy? I asked Deja as I picked up Cia.
She cooking daddy ,Deja said as I carried my baby out the room.
Looking at her as she cut up some carrots, one thing her momma did do was teach her how to cook.

You don't want to talk to me? I asked her as Cia played with my chain.
What is it to talk about? You're not gonna back up because you think everything that you did to me is a joke and I'm nobody to have my own opinion or nothing about all the fucked up shit you do and have done to me. She yelled as the tears exit.

Man chill out with that yelling and my baby right here I said as she just looked at me.
No fuck all that you had my kids around that dirty pussy bitch , why the fuck I can't curse around them? You already exposed them to fuck shit, she yelled making me upset because I didn't let nobody talk stupid in front of my kids.

Man okay, I said as I walked Cia back into the room with Deja.
Deja stay in here okay? I said as she looked at me funny.
Okay daddy she said as I closed the door.

Still in the kitchen she added the food to the pots as I looked at her.
Can you not curse in front of my kids? I asked her .

But it's okay for you to fuck around them ?she said as I just got so mad I wanted to punch her ass but I wasn't dumb, I wasn't finna touch her while she's in the kitchen so she could stab or burn me or something , I wasn't dumb.

Talking shit, we never got to this point, because I would of been knocked her ass down so she's actually trying to stand up for herself.

Walking out the kitchen , she walked the long way around because she knew I was gonna get her ass , shit I was still gonna get her, she couldn't out run me.

That's all you have to say? I asked her as I grabbed her from the back as she try's to run in the room with my kids.

Umm ? I asked walking her back towards the living room.
What you finna beat me up? Go ahead she cried as I just walked her in the living room.
That's all you did anyways was beat my ass , fuck bitches on me, come home and fuck me with a dirty dick then kicked my ass for nothing, that's all she cried as I had her against the wall in the living room.

Shut up, I lowly said feeling upset and hurt for hurting her.
No hit me, at least I know you love me if you hit me right? You told me that, you told me if you beat ass that mean you love me , so what does it mean when you cheat? Does that mean you love me to? She asked as I just looked at her as she cried .

You never got to know me, you never got to know that I am a good person and I would of loved you if you just would of treated me nice.
Instead of forcing this on me , I always liked you even when you pulled my hair and took my stuff in school ,I liked you but you forced everything on me for nothing she cried as I just looked at her.

I'm sorry I said as a tear dropped from my eyes.
Putting her hands on my face I real deal broke down , I'm sorry I said as I looked her in the eyes.
Please forgive me, I'm sorry , I am a fucked up person who took so much from you, I don't deserve you, I'm sorry I said as the tears just exit my eyes.