Sweetie

Truth

Busting open a bottle of Hennessy I had under my seat I pulled over to this park I used to come and think 🤔 at..
Get out , I said as she just looked at me.
Why? She asked as I got out the car.
I wasn't mad that she wanted to ask questions, I was upset because I did so much shit wrong I didn't know how to answer.

Get out , I said opening the door .
Walking in front of her, I walked towards a picnic table.
Sitting down I looked up to her as she slowly walked towards me.

Sitting in front of me , I looked at my hands, my  left hand is tatted up from my fingers all the way to my left shoulder and on the other hand I have her name with her lips that I actually made her kiss 💋 before I went to get it so it's her real lips.

At 10 I started selling Coke, Trent oldest brother Meko put me own. When my daddy learnt about that he beat my ass with a mental bat. Bradley heard about it and came to our house and beat my daddy ass  with that same bat and made me leave with him. But for years I remember my daddy beating my mommas ass, I mean he used to fuck her up in front of all of us but Bradley never lived with us, he stayed down here on the West side with his daddy, so he ain't know my momma was getting fucked up like that until one summer he came and stayed for the summer and my daddy took off on my momma at the dinner table because she forgot butter.
I saw them Bradley was different because he told he was gonna kill my daddy if he hit my momma again.
So when I was 8 , my daddy was tripping over the television, I turnt it from the news to cartoons and this nigga hit me so hard in the eye , I couldn't go to school for a week.
My momma asked him why and he beat her in front of me.
I'm thinking this shit cool.
So when I started going to school with y'all, I seen a lot of boys hitting girls and shit so I'm thinking 💭 the shit was normal , then one day I came home , by this time I was staying with Bradley and he had knocked Toni down so hard because he got caught cheating.
Toni yelled at me and made me go in the room and all I heard was Bradley apologizing, I never knew what she did to him, I said as I took a sip of the Hennessy.
So when I started seeing you and seeing you was different and you was pretty ,I wanted to see if I could make you feel like my daddy used to make my momma feel, it's like he would beat her up then we would hear them fucking and she's telling him she loved him within the next 10 mins after they fought.

So I knew If I seen you everyday and I could say something mean to you or pull your hair,I could have you one day, very sick.
9 grade year I begged Bradley to put me on , even though he made sure I stay fly, like I was wearing 200 Jays every time a fresh pair came out, lol had chains and nice ass clothes , he made sure my hair was done and I looked fresh everyday, shit I don't think I ever wore the same draws twice shit I never wore the same outfit twice that's why I have so much shit because bruh made sure I had and he always gave me money but I wanted to get my money so I asked him for about a year and the nigga always told me no.
10 grade year he finally said yeah , so I'm coming to school fucking with you pulling on your hair making you mad and Trent and Killa was saying how you was looking good and your ass was fine and shit and I would tell them that I was already your boyfriend and we had sex and all, man I used to be lying and shit just to block anyone from talking to you.
So that spring break I went to this party with Bradley down in Miami, mad bitches , like hoes was just giving pussy up with no problem, so we in the hotel room, I ain't never fuck a day in my life ,so I'm green as fuck, about three hoes attack me, one was sucking my dick while the other ones are just putting their titties in my face.
I bust off , off of  head, I'm embarrassed but them hoes ain't care the one swallows my nut and the other one begin sucking my dick ,getting me back hard so fast , the shit went on for about three hours, when they left that room that night I swear I had sex with like 5 different girls and this was my first time ever smelling pussy.

So when we came back to school, I thought I was the shit. I'm knocking down bitches just because, I left you alone for a min until I seen Andre in your face one day ( oh yeah I remember that day, she said) yeah I ain't like that shit so I had my niggas beat him up for that shit and I started taking your bags and shit to let you know that I was still here.
I messed with you for the rest of 10th grade then the whole 11th grade I told myself I was gonna fuck you but you was always crying or running , so when I told Trent to get your number, I wanted to see if you would give it to him, once you did I was hot and I felt like I had to control you.

So that summer I worked hard, I started getting money and hoes was giving me pussy just because I was selling coke.
Senior year I knew I had to give you some of me because you started looking really good and I used to hear boys saying how they wanted to fuck you and this and that, so I force myself on you, I knew you wasn't fucking , I knew you was afraid of me, so I used all that to get you.

I did cheat your whole pregnancy, I was doing dumb shit.
The hitting was like a rage, it seems like when I hit you, you was begging so much it turnt me on so I'll do it when I'm wrong and I'll fuck you right after.
Bradley hated I hit you, he used knock me across the head and shit and I'll come home and fight you because I was mad that he had beat me up or said anything to me about you.
I explained as the tears just exit her eyes.
I cheated a lot, but I still had in my head that Novia can't get away from me, she's mine and I didn't stop thinking that way until Bradley told me at the hospital that I was a fuck nigga and stupid as fuck, I said as she wiped the tears from her face.
Drinking out the bottle I never stop looking at her.

You didn't deserve none of that, you ain't do shit wrong I just did everything wrong .

I want to go to the movies , she cooed as I looked at her.
Can we go get dressed up and go to a movie? She slowly asked.
Yes, I said as I looked at her beautiful face that I have had leaking on plenty of  occasions.