Sweetie

Just cant

Damn you look good , Jett cooed as I walked out the house .
So lately we haven't been together sexually. The last two weeks he's really been good and has taking me on dates.
Like he would call and flirt with me and ask can he take me to the movies or to dinner like he was supposed to did from the jump but I get it and I was trying to leave that in the back of my mind even though it was hard as hell.

Thank you I cooed as he hugged me.
Yes we would kiss and hug and a couple of times it got close to fucking but I wanted it to to be special when we start back having sex and he promise it would be.

Opening the door for me, he helped me get into the car. Tonight was the first night I was actually going to the club with him , like he's inviting me out and we going together so I was nervous but happy at the same time.

11 p.m
Entering the club with him , he stood behind me.
Seeing a few bitches I knew for a fact that he fucked because them hoes use to be really blunt about fucking him.
The bitch Bonifa was the worst but before her it was this bitch name Tomeka , that bitch was so disrespectful, she would leave her panties in his car, she would call  during their fuck time , the bitch was mad disrespectful. She ended up going to jail for stealing so I didn't have to worried about the bitch for a while and when she got out he was in prison so it was nothing , she started fucking with Trent and that was that.
Trent popped up here and there but they wasn't as close as they were in school, in fact I was accused of fucking him a few times  and I would get my ass stomp over that lie.

I heard Toni say they found Bonifa on the side of the road a few weeks ago, say she was fucked up and her neck was deeply cut but she was breathing but wasn't saying nothing but in my gut I felt it had something to do with Jett but he ain't say nothing about it and I didn't either.

Telling me he's going to the bathroom , he leave me at the table. Bitch I don't know how to act so I'm just listening to music and taking pictures of my self not worry about nothing because what happened in the past ,I'm trying to keep it in the past.

Damn my bad someone said as I feel this wetness on my back.
Wow , I said standing up, looking back , I am looking right into this bitch name Tavia's face .
Now this bitch was stupid as fuck to, we actually went to school together. After I had Deja, baby girl was maybe 2 days , the hoe called me and told me that Jett was laying next to her when he was supposed to be in the hospital with me.
She sent me pictures and all of them fucking and shit, it had me so sad that I just wanted to leave the hospital and never come back, in fact I tried to but I didn't have anywhere to go ,that he couldn't find us.
When he came back to the hospital that next night, shit he ain't even come to tell me sorry the day of but when he came back the next day, the bitch act like it wasn't nothing, he didn't even act like he cared.
It was horrible like I don't know why I want this to work. I don't know if I'm just scared of him or if I really want to be with him.

As she's laughing because she poured the drink on me. My inner me told me to pop this bitch, like I never fought. I used to fight him back but it never did nothing but make that nigga put his foot in my ass .
Swing bitch , swing Novia said to me , bitch if I swing and get beat up it's your fault ,I said to myself as I did what Novia told Novia to do.
Swing, I punched this hoe dead in the face, don't stop swinging Novia, don't stop. Listening to myself I didn't stop.
Bitchhhh bitchhh I'm so proud of you bitch yes, I said as I'm being yanked off of her .
Kicking her one last time I just know that hoe pulled my dress and that bitch was half off me.

Getting pushed out the club by Jett, bitches was screaming and laughing that I tapped that bitches ass, I was upset so I begin to cry.

Novia he said as I walked off, I didn't know where my purse was or nothing, I just walked off. Novia he yelled as I walked and cried , like why do I have to fight bitches ? Why like bitch I don't deserve this stupid shit.
Man Novia he said grabbing me from the back.

Ughh I hate you, I hate you, you did all this shit. I'm getting into fights with dumb bitches because of you, I don't fucking fight, bitch I'm to fucking pretty to be fighting ( my inner me told me to say that 😝) why do I have to be hated so much because you fucked all these dirty pussy bitches. They hate me because I have your kids? Why ?? I yelled as I looked up to him .
As I'm crying Toni is walking up with my purse and phone, I never seen her in the club , but I knew they where coming .

I am so sick of this , like you beat my ass behind these hoes because I didn't want to sleep with you after you been out all night fucking  them but every last one of them has came for me and you never straighten them bitches but you will kick my head in if I have a attitude about them bitches calling me and shit, I cried as he looked at me.

This not gonna work, I don't want to be with you. Please just leave me alone, I said walking off as Toni followed me and Bradley stood next to him.

Like why did I have go through this bullshit?