Sweetie

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4:30 a.m
Deja: Momma you are a bad momma, how you let daddy just come and take us. If you didn't want us you should of never birth us.

Me: what are you talking about? I do love you and I do want y'all, you don't listen to me and I'm so sick of y'all disrespecting me like I am nobody

Deja: you're not, I wish you die , you fucked up our life , so fuck your stupid life.

Me: wow Deja I'm sorry you feel that way, I love you

Deja: I hate you , we all hate you . Like you are the worst momma, you weak as fuk you let daddy beat you up then you let Rj beat your ass, like you weak, I never want to be like you.

Me: I'm sorry Deja 😞

Feeling like shit I sat in my room crying all night long. It's like I get treated  bad for trying to be a good person .
My kids don't want to be here, they hate me because their daddy wasn't around, they said it was my fault. The only child that loved me in Lloyd and that's because he didn't know Knowledge at all.  But he wanted to go with the kids so I let him.
Looking at the pictures of my babies I loved them so much

Popping 28 Opioids, I took them down with some Vodka and Red Bull.
Turning the music on my phone , I just laid back and smoked my blunt until my eyes close.
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Toni
Waking up to the police at my door, I pushed Bradley.
The police is at the door, I whispered as the light shines in the bathroom window.
The fuck? I asked getting Up as he hides his guns.

Yes ? I said as the officer flashed the light in my face.
Umm we are looking for Toni Jettson? The white bald officers said as I looked him the face and Bradley comes to the door in his boxers.

Umm 🤔 yes I said as he looked at me.
Do you know a Novia Jettson? He asked.

Umm yes that's my sister in law , she not here what's wrong
Umm we know she's not here, she's deceased he smartly said as I looked at him.
What? I said thinking 🤔 I'm tripping.
Yes her 13 year old went into the house this morning around 7 and find her unresponsive, we are thinking the child was with dad but runaway and came to moms but mom was already gone.
She called 911 and the emt came , we arrived and she was already cold.
Dad is at the hospital now with the kids, we only came here because you are the only person she had on her contact information, the officer explained as my knees got weak.

Like she couldn't take it anymore, I was just with her earlier yesterday and she was telling me that she felt to stress and I promised her I was gonna pick her up today and take her to the salon and give her a Toni's makeover.
She was showing me texts and videos of Deja and how disrespectful her and Cia was , she said they hated her and that shit made me cry.
Now look she's not with us anymore.
😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞

Doing my girls hair for the last time, I looked at her face and she was at peace. Like she looked so pretty it's like she was sleeping.
Having a fucked up life from the jump, she had a heart of Gold . She was so peaceful like a angel that God put her for a reason. She taught us all something, she taught us to love ourselves and don't take life for a joke and be humble because she was humble about a lot of shit.

She's at peace, she don't have to fight no more, she don't have to be perfect for a unpredictable ass nigga who only did wrong by her from the jump.
Did Jett love her? Hell no if he did half the shit he did to her he wouldn't of done.

Deja looked so hurt, like little girl you did this to your momma, reading the messages that she had text her in the we hours was horrible , you told your momma to kill her self and she did.