Sweetie

Regrets

Cleaning his tears away, I couldn't see him cry,
I'm sorry he cooed again as the kids are playing around us.
Jett was never nice and the last few weeks he's showed me a person that I never knew, like this nigga crying 😢 .
Bitch he is crying I said to myself.

Maybe one day I'll be right for you, he said as he just looked at me.
Looking at him, the dumb Novia is telling me to take this nigga back and love him but the grown me is telling me to boss up and let this nigga grow up.

I was pushed to grow up really fast, I had to get a job and take care of me and Caitlyn, then when I got with him , I was forced to Be a girlfriend for a nigga who beat my ass, I was forced to be a momma, I was forced to take bullshit that I didn't deserve.
So he would have to grow up and be a man before I even think about taking him back.
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Jett
Leaving Novia and the kids, I was hurt and I real deal just poured my heart out to the love of my life for her to only tell me , I wasn't ready to be the man she wanted , so what was I supposed to do now?

Calling my brother , I asked him could I come over, I was very upset so I needed to vent to someone who knew me.

So what's up nigga? He asked as I busted a blunt open.
Shit just left Nov and the kids, I said as he looked at me.
Oh yeah? How did that go? He asked as he looked at me.
Bad, she told me how she felt and I apologize but she doesn't think I'm ready to leave the bullshit alone but I am, I'm ready to just be with her and my kids, I explained to him as Toni is walking outside with the Henny he told her to get.

Looking at me she was always on my ass about treating Nov good, she said I was stupid as fuck and I was so I just listened .
Let me get the key to the apartment, I said to my brother as Toni just looked at me, I'm pretty sure she talked to Novia already.

After dealing with their speeches I went to the apartment my brother had on the north side with all the white folks.

10:12 p. m
Checking my message, I had a few messages from different chicks. I didn't want them so I blocked them.

Seeing a message from her , I clicked on it.
Wife❤️: I think you should take me to breakfast in the morning
Not knowing if I should reply or not I just looked at the message.

Wife❤️: no??? Yes ???
Wife❤️: you might be fucking let me stop before your freak bitch be playing on my phone all night.

Deciding to FaceTime with her instead of texting , I wanted to show her I was dolo.

Oh what your hoe left? She asked as I looked at her laying in bed with the sheet covering her body.
Not replying I just licked my lips as she looked at me.
Where are you? She asked as I just watched her talk.
What's your  name? I asked her.

Knowledge, she replied. As she laughed.

Watching her smile , the shit looked so funny because I really never made her laugh 😂

So are you gonna take me and the kids to breakfast in the morning or not? She asked as I looked at her.
Yeap, I'll be there at 8, I said as she just smile , show casing them pretty whites.

So what's your name? I asked her trying to reintroduce myself but in a different way then being mean.

Umm I'm Novia, what's your name? She asked as the sheet moved a little making me see some of her titties.
Licking my lips because I wanted to lick her, I'm Knowledge, I said as she smile.
Nice to meet you Knowledge, can I call you Knowledge? She asked .
I hated my name so I went by Jett but maybe I need to keep this nigga Knowledge around.

Yes you can, I said as she looked at me.
Knowledge I can't sleep can you please come sleep with me? She asked as I watched the facial expressions she made like she wanted to cry.

Umm no baby, I'll see you in the morning, I said not wanting to go over there and make love to her and she regrets it In the morning.

Wow okay she said as I looked at her. I'll see you later then, tell whoever's there with you she's lucky, I could never get you to do what I wanted , shit I never could have my whole man either so (shrugged shoulder)

Disconnecting the call, she looked very upset.
It's like I don't know what to do ? Like what do she want me to do ? I don't know how to love her without hurting her.