Sweetie

Whew

What? I asked Deja as she tells me her daddy had some lady in his truck today.

Yes momma he had this lady with long blonde hair in his truck, he kissed her momma Cia chimes in as I looked at them.
Jett was in the shower and I was helping the kids with there home work and cooking dinner.

I didn't know why the kids was telling me this but they was and it hurt so bad that this fool will cheat in front of our kids. Like why make a big deal about us being together and you're gonna cheat? Why make a big deal about having your kids here and you cheat? Like why fuck with me?

Y'all go finish y'all homework I said as he walked out our room.

Looking afraid, he probably told them not to say nothing but they did. They never told me he had anyone around them until today and that's probably because he is getting messing as fuck. But why would you do that in front of your kids , definitely the girls, they don't need to see their daddy being a hoe.

Damn that ass look good in this dress, he said grabbing my ass.
Looking at him, he had me fucked up . When I say I'm a new bitch I am and I'm not gonna keep letting him play with me.

Knowledge? I said feeling my body get hot.

Damn I'm Knowledge now? What I'm in trouble? He asked as I looked at him.

Never mind, I am not gonna say anything, just don't worry about it I said as Cia looked at me.

What? What the kids told you I had a female in the car? He said looking at the two oldest girls.

Why would you have a female in the car around the kids? That's disrespectful, I said as he just cross his arms and look at me.
Like I don't get it, you wanted your family back but you still cheating I yelled. Did I tell you don't tell in front my kids stupid ? He said as I just looked at him.

I ain't fucking nobody but you, so what? He yelled as the kids went into their room.
So you ain't kiss the chick? Why would you kiss  ah bitch in front of my kid's? I asked him as he looked at me.
Man I ain't got to explain shit to you, he said as I looked at him.
You're right you don't that's why I'm taking my kids and leaving , you aren't finna do me wrong this time around I said turning the stove off.

Man you can go but you ain't taking my kids, he yelled as I jumped.
Whatever, you not finna play me I said as he gets in my face and we begin fussing .
Everyone knew Jett was the abuser, he beat my ass for years . So of course I was afraid of him, knocking me down as I try to leave he's close fist punching me.

Trying to kick him off me ,he drags me out the kitchen.
Kicking still ,he is eating the kicks as I scream for help. Deja and Cia knew when we fought in the pass they just turn the television up loud or put on headphones so I'm pretty sure that's what they did.

Getting me in the room , I'm able to run from him as he locks the door.
Running into the bathroom, I lock my self in.

Scared out my mind, it's nothing in here to protect
me the door is so thin, he is literally kicking it open. Grabbing the razor I did my eyebrows with I held it in my hand thinking it was gonna save me or some shit.

Grabbing me he close fist hit me again, getting on top of me, his yelling you ain't taking my kids bitch, I'll kill you before I let you take my kids, he yells as I just scream.

Grabbing the razor I just tried my best to stab him but it seem as it wasn't doing nothing.

Stupid bitch you cut me, he yells as he's stomping me.

Getting knocked out, I have no clue on what's going on.

Hearing people talk and my kids yelling and crying I am being taking out the house on a stretcher.
I don't see him or nobody just my kids
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Next day
Covering my face as the police is telling me that Knowledge was dead and their saying I killed him.
I don't remember even harming him, he was on top of me and I tried to cut him with the razor but it wasn't doing anything, I cried as they just recorded me and one took pictures of my face and other parts of my body.
Being told that I killed him but will not be charged with his death was so painful because I honestly didn't kill him purpose.
The razor hit a artery on his neck and he bled out . They say he was in shock and got in his car, say the car blew up because he hit some gas ⛽️ pump, I was sick like really sick.

14 days later
Scared to get out the hospital because I knew everyone wanted to kill me because I accidentally killed him, my kids was with my momma and sister and they was in another state.
I didn't know what to do, I was basically told to leave the city and that's what I am doing.
On top of all this bullshit, I'm pregnant again , my kids don't have a daddy now because I accidentally killed him.
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7 years later
Bitch I ain't even supposed to be in Boca, I said to my sister as we arrived to our hometown.
It's been 7 long years , hard years . Shit I had 6 kids who all felt like I took their daddy from them.
Deja was 16 and she reminded me everyday that I killed her daddy.
She had Cia and Noe saying it , the twins would only say it when their having a fit and Lloyd didn't really know anything but his daddy wasn't here anymore.

For years I had dreams of him, for years I hated my  self so much that I begin drinking heavy, I got with men who beat my ass, I started using hard drugs, I let me go.
My kids was so out of control because I couldn't control kids who hate me. So I decided to move them back to Boca and let their dad family care for them, I wish every day that Jett would of killed me.

It's like he's living through his kids and Deja acted just like him.
She had a boyfriend , she was having sex and she fought me and now Cia and Noe wanted to jump in so it was 3 against one and I just couldn't deal with them.

Pulling up to Toni and Bradley house, I haven't talked to them in 7 years. Deja find them on Facebook and she's been communicating with them. She told her uncle I killed her daddy and he shut her up. He told her , her daddy was wrong as fuck and he's been wrong for years and the nigga wasn't even dead, he had me confused and thinking he was saying he wasn't dead as if the nigga Spirit was still around but he was serious, I called him after he told her that and he said Jett was on the run for the feds and they made up a lie that he got stab, he was in shock when he got in his car and the car blew up so when the police told me they didn't have a body that's why and the reason he beat my ass was because he was wrong but that was their cover up.

I damn near die hearing that.

Watching my grown ass three oldest get out the car, I text Toni we was outside .
Fuck, I said to Caitlyn as Jett walks out . I can't breathe I said as she rubbed my back. Bitch I can't breathe.
Watching the kids face , Deja looked so shock.
Please I can't not take this I said as she looked at me.
So he went to the Fed for 6 years and had just got out , that's the only reason Bradley told me the truth.
He was caught maybe three months after we left.

Getting out the car, he looked at the kids. I was clean maybe 3 months but I feel like I needed a whole blunt and a molly right now.

Hey babe, Toni cooed as I just looked at her . Dropping to my knees before she could hug me I cried.
Like why? Oh my Gosh, I cried as she hugging me.

I know babe I'm sorry she cried, we tried to find you but we couldn't until Deja Located us on Facebook . I wish I knew where you had went , the police didn't give us nothing because they felt we wanted to hurt you, she cried as I just covered my face .