i love you. (eddie x juicy)

issues. (pt. 9)

TW! cutting
sorry for the fucked up, shitty story.

Author's POV

After the boys finished eating, Eddie remembered when his arm were bleeding earlier. He felt guilty for it. He knew it was going to hurt him and the others. Eddie couldn't handle the pain, so he stormed off to the room. Slamming the door didn't help anything. Eddie is mad, but it didn't help. Gaege wasn't even mad. Gaege KNEW what it felt like. Eddie's issues were difficult. He's sick and tired. "I'm sorry guys, I'll be back." Gaege said. Gaege walked over to the room. He hesitated to knock. It hurt him more then it hurt anyone else. "Eddie. Please, open the door." Gaege sobbed. It was quite. It stayed that way for a bit.

"Eddie, I know. It hurts. But you shouldn't blame yourself for acting like this. I told you. Babe please, you don't have to hide. Please open the door."

Eddie opened the door, showing more cuts on his arm."I can't fucking believe you, Eddie. What the hell is fucking wrong with you?" Gaege exclaimed. "Please, Gaege. Hear me out." Eddie said. The situation was very serious. It was so serious they didn't even call each other baby, or babe. Eddie and Gaege were both in the room. Together. They didn't even know how to start talking. "This is serious, babe. This is not a joke. Never have I seen you like this. Now, I need you to tell me what's wrong so I can help you. I wont be able to if you won't let me." Gaege tried so hard not to yell. The time with all the boys was definitely ruined. Eddie was blaming himself to many times, to many. "You know those pills. The ones that supposedly helped with pain. They weren't for pain. I tried, killing myself." Eddie finally spoke.

"Come here babe."

"But my blood will get on your sweater."

"It doesn't matter, my love. Your hugs matter more."

Eddie sobbing into Gaege's shoulder. "Please Eddie, I'm begging you to feel better. I love you, I cant lose you." Gaege cried. They both did. The others just felt horrible. They knew they were possibly going to lose Eddie. It was terrifying for them. Losing a friend that had a smile, making everyone's day better. Mully talked to the 2 others, talking about how they all should just take a day out together. They weren't going to be there forever, so why not spend time with each other. Mully didn't want to disturb. So he sent Gaege a text.

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Big goosey

M: i hope everything is alright.

G: it is. but not the best feeling.

M: hey look, i understand. i was with him when he first cut himself. i'm hoping it was his first time. anyways, we're not going to be here forever. so why not just spend a day outside, and not here. oh and before we leave, check eddie for me, i don't want him to continue hurting himself.

G: alr, thank you mul.
and i will. 

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It was going to get better. They knew it was.

Maybe it wasn't.

Gaege's POV

I don't know what I'm going to do. I don't. We just got here, it hasn't even been 5 days.

The things I would do for him.

"Gaege. It's all my fault. I'm so stupid to let my emotions get to me. You deserve so much. I'm giving you nothing."

"No. Don't EVER say that! You hear me? Love, you bring so much happiness, you don't even know how happy I am to call you mine."

Eddie hugged me tighter, It was hard to breathe but it was worth it.

"Babe, look at me." I cupped his cheeks. "I'm begging you. PLEASE, don't ever cut yourself again." I said. He nodded. I told him about Mully's plan, he nodded again. I held his hand, walking to the door. "Gaege wait." Eddie said. I turned around seeing he had his knife in his hand. "Please, take this." Eddie sighed. "Thank you love." I was happy, I guess.

Author's POV

Eddie, Gaege, Mully, Josh and Grant all went out. Not to drink. Not to eat. But to hang out. Eddie was vaping without Gaege knowing. Eddie felt so guilty about it, but he couldn't resist. Eddie's music went from happy to just horrible and messed up songs. He even listens to daddy issues. Gaege noticed it. Gaege sadly cries himself to sleep. Eddie does too.

They want happiness.