author's note / yeah, this one's not very good. just wanted to get out some emotions.
it hurts, you know
being rejected by someone you love so deeply.
perhaps i'm being dramatic
after all, i'm just a high schooler, what could i know of love?
but whatever love is, this is the closest i've felt to it.
it felt like a stab to the chest when you said no
and while i know that it would have hurt more to have not gotten an answer
the feeling of my stomach dropping wasn't much better
i've written poetry about my love for you
and how it reminds me of the sweetness of vanilla, the spark of citrus
at this point its taste has turned sour
and it burns on my tongue
i need to let go and damn, i'm trying
but how do you just let go of something like this?
how do you let go of love? of the hope that maybe, just maybe, you might feel the same?
i've never felt this way about anyone else
how do i move on from that?
i'm trying to focus on myself
but what's to focus on? my ever crumbling mental health?
i spend most of my day playing video games
because i don't want to think about how much i miss you
how much i miss the times when you felt the same
but i guess that's the end of it, huh?
we're simply friends and will never be any more
if you like anyone, it won't be me
and that's it.
