senior year ↠ jack gilinsky

seven

I don't have words for how I feel. I'm more confused then ever, and I don't know what to do, or how to feel, or even how to act. Why am I feeling like this? I wish I just had some answers to the many questions that scurry around mind.

After Jack and I hung out at his house, he has been ignoring me. Every time I try to talk to him, wether it's at school or his house, he ignores me. Was the kiss an act of pity? He was probably intoxicated while on the other hand, I was intoxicated with love, as cheesy as that might seem.

I just don't understand, one moment he says he's in love with me and has always wanted to kiss me, and the next he won't even say two words to me.

He's also acted different in school, he's been playing with girls left and right, and don't even get me started about Alexi. She is being dragged around with him. She is so caught up on him, that now, she won't even give me the time of day. The only friends I do feel like I have, are Cameron and Brandi. Everyone else, have fallen into Jack's trap.

I can't even look at him the same way I used too. I used to look at him in a friendly way, now I look at him in love and disgust.

"Hello? Earth to Andrea?" Brandi said. I must have been staring into blank space.

"Yeah?"
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing."

She looked at me and sighed, she knows me too well. She knew something is on my mind, I've just been keeping it a secret. It's not anyone's business by my own.

We were currently sitting down at our regular spot at lunch, In the middle of the cafeteria. I get up from the table, going to get my lunch, but unfortunately, stopped by the problem causer himself.

Here come's little Jack and his toys, one under each arm. Wow, another tool added to many tools in my tool box.

"Sup."
"Hi, can you please be so kind and to move out of my way? Please and thank you," I scoffed.
"Jealous?"
"Ha, of what? Because from what I see here, Im perfectly happy to not be associating with you. Now if you excuse me." I pushed him to the side with my hand, no regret or guilt.

I did lie though, I wish we were talking, I wish we could go back to the moment of the kiss, but sadly I have to keep it bottled up inside.

I got in line, and got something simple. Pizza and a Dr.Pepper. Not really in the mood for a salad, or anything healthy for that matter.

I walk back to my table, but something is off. Way off.

There is some random girl sitting in my seat, and now there is no where to sit. I look over to see Jack looking right at me, with a smirk plastered on his face.

"Sorry, Madison needed somewhere to sit. You can go sit somewhere else." Did Jack really just say that? I'm the one that had him sit here, the one that gave him some friends, and he just throws me away like that?

"Hi I'm Madison Beer, This is my seat now okay," a/n don't hate me pls asdfghjk She said quite rudely. Wow, nice presentation. Note sarcasm.

"Um, excuse me, but this happened to be my seat first."

"Not anymore, maybe you can go sit by the trash cans with the losers. Wow Jack, you were right. She is just an ugly bitch. She is obviously just the duff of the group."

I looked to Jack, who looked right back at me, and pointed to the trash can.

I feel the tears forming around the rim of my eyes. This wasn't right, and none of my friends were backing me up, not even Brandi.

I open my Dr.Pepper, and take a small sip of it. I nod, to indicate that it's good.

Then, I poured it all over Jack and Madison's heads. You should have seen their faces, it was priceless. I dropped the can on Jacks head, not regretting a thing.

"Looks like you've got some trash, I suggest you go to the trash cans and go sit there with the losers. Watch out though, the custodian might swoop you up and put you in her trash bag."

I walk away, there's no point in sitting with a table full of fake friends.

I guess it's good to find out who my real friends are.

Looks like I've had fake friends all along.

Oh well, learn from my mistakes.

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omg I felt like writing so here I iz

I have had bad writer block and can you guys please tell me if this chapter sucked or not, I have a feeling like it sucked ass.

well ILYSM and pls pls pls pls have a grrrrrreat daY !!!!!!!! 💖💖💖💖💖

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