Heal Me

|cruel joke|

"I fucking knew it!" Dom cursed. "Where are you going?" He demanded, crossing his arms over his chest. "Back-" I was cut off by my door slamming. "You aren't going back there." He chastised. I threw my head back laughing, "Don't speak to me like I'm a pup." I snapped. "Then stop acting like one." He raged, throwing his hands up in the air.

"Fuck you, Dominic." I shot, glaring at him. He raised his brow at me, "Really?" He chuckled darkly. "You go back there, they're going to kill you. You know that, right?" He deadpanned. I sighed in frustration. "It's better than putting you all in danger," I shouted. He stepped towards me and I held my hand up. He ignored me and kept moving towards me. He stopped when our feet were toe to toe.

"Why would you be putting us in danger?" He countered. I rolled my shoulders and snorted. "There's a rogue just outside of your territory," I grunted. "And? There are rogues all over the place. What's that got to do with you?" He retorted. I rolled my eyes and huffed. "He knows me," I answered, keeping my voice cold and distant. "Again... What's that got to do with you?" He snapped.

I growled at him, well the best I could without an inner wolf. "I need answers, ok?" I sighed, "I want to know why my mum did what she did... I want to know what happened to my brother... I-I just want to be happy." I choked. "You can be happy here and still get all the answers you want." He muttered, "Without dying." He breathed. I raised my brow at him and he stepped back.

"Will you stay?" He asked, his eyes pleading with me. "No," I answered, keeping my eyes fixed on the floor. I heard him take a sharp intake of breath, "Why?" He choked. "Because I don't belong here! I need to go back to my pack and figure things out. I need to see Carson. I need to speak to him, I want to know why he did what he did. I can't breathe without him, Dom. I need something to help and being with Carson again will do that, even if it kills-" I held my breath as Dom crashed his lips against mine.

It takes me a few seconds to realise Dom's kissing me... His lips are moving against mine and it takes me a further few seconds to realise my lips are moving with him. It feels like he's breathing life into me again, I feel like I'm floating. He runs his hands against my chest and grips my shirt, pulling me against him.

My arms mindlessly drape across his shoulders and close behind his head. He moans and it ignites something deep inside of me. This is my first kiss, I never imagined it would be with another guy. But it feels incredible and it feels right. He walks me towards my bed, without breaking the kiss. My legs hit the mattress and we both topple down. He's hovering above me, our lips still connected.

His hands are everywhere, he's kneading, squeezing, grabbing ahold of anything he can. I moan, eliciting a breathless moan from him. "I've been wanting to do this for fucking ages and I have no idea why." He moans before attacking my neck with wet kisses. "I don't even know if you're my mate." He adds.

I freeze and push him off me. "Oh Goddess, your mate!" I yelp. "I'm not your mate, I can't be your mate." I wheeze. "I don't have the wolf to make the connection." I took a deep breath. "But, until you, I've never had these feelings." He whispered. "That will just be your hormones." I sighed, looking away. He moved my head back to him and he sighed, "No, I've never had these feelings for a guy." He muttered, sounding embarrassed. I sighed and shook my head. "Me neither," I admitted.

I pulled away from him and shook my head. "But, I won't be your mate, so we can't do this. It will only hurt me when you find your mate." I whispered. He looked defeated and upset. I wanted to pull him back against me and hold him but I didn't want to prolong the inevitable. "Can I- Can I stay with you tonight?" He asked. I sighed and as much as I wanted to say yes, I knew I couldn't.

I shook my head and bit my lip, hoping the tears would wait until he left. He opened his mouth to say something but closed it again. He nodded once then stood up and left. Once the door shut behind him, I sobbed into my hands. What kind of cruel joke is the Moon Goddess playing on me? If I were to have a mate, I would want him to be him.

I kicked my shoes off and pulled my clothes off. I pulled the cover back and laid down on the bed, wrapping myself up in the cover. I'm staying, for now. If he finds his mate tomorrow I don't think I can stay and watch him all loved up with someone. I let the tears fall freely until I fell asleep.

I blinked and rubbed my eyes. Once I had gotten used to the brightness, I glanced around. I huffed when I realised the Moon Goddess had summoned me. "What do you want now?" I deadpanned. "What's the matter, Caleb?" Her voice calmed me more than I wanted it to. I sighed and stood up. "Like you don't know," I grunted. "I don't, that's why I'm asking, my child." She answered. "Will you stop calling me your child? If I were your child, why am I miserable? Why would you make your only child left, unhappy?" I took a deep breath, "Why don't I have a wolf? Why did Carson turn out as he did? Why don't my parents love me? Why doesn't my twin want me anymore? Why can't Dominic be my mate? Why do I have to stay with the Dark Wolves?" I panted for breath after I fired questions at her.

I couldn't see her but I could feel her. It was like calming energy surrounding me. "Caleb, everything happens for a reason. You are not ready, my boy." Her voice echoed and faded. "Ready for what?" I questioned. "All will be revealed." She added before my eyes felt heavy and I was being pulled back into sleep.