Heal Me

|rejection|

"Baby, we're home," Dom whispered before placing a soft kiss on my lips. I opened my eyes and sighed. I don't remember getting back to the car or the pack. I've just blocked everything out, my head hurts. All I wanna do is sleep. "I need to speak to the pack members that we brought back, do you wanna come or go up to our room?" He asked, holding a hand on my face. I smiled at him, "What?" He chuckled. "You called it our room," I answered. "It might as well be, I'll be coming there later." He shrugged. "Yes, yes you will." I groaned. "Can't you come now?" I smirked. He shook his head, "You've had a tough few hours, go relax or something. I'll be there once I've dealt with the pack." He chuckled. 

I climbed out of the car and watched as Carson climbed out of the car a few down from us. He stared at me, I felt sick. He was my twin brother, but we couldn't be further apart. We should have been close, we should have what Addi and Dom have. But instead, he's a stranger to me, I don't know what he's thinking or am I able to mindlink him. My heart was breaking for what I lost with him, I expected to be angry... Angry I could have dealt with. Not this, this pain, I don't know what to do with.

Dom wrapped his arm around me and pecked my cheek. "Daddy!" Lillian squealed running towards Carson, he bent down and caught her as she jumped at him. She was crying on his shoulder. She lifted her head and glanced at me, "Thank you for saving my daddy, Uncle Caleb." She shouted with tears gushing down her face.

I choked back a sob and dug my fingers into Dom's arms. "Ok, come on." He whispered as he pushed me towards the packhouse. We stopped by Rhydian and Amaris, "Caleb, we need to talk-" I shook my head, interrupting her. "I don't want to know what happened, as long as she can't hurt anyone else again." I choked. I took deep breaths trying to stop the tears but it was useless. I broke down, I hid my face in my hands as my body convulsed. "I'll help the pack while you tend to Caleb." I heard Rhydian tell him. He turned me and held me against his chest as he walked me into the house. 

We made it up to the room and I only cried harder. "I don't even know why I'm crying." I cried. "Baby, it's ok to feel upset. I understand, seeing Carson again can't have been easy." He whispered. "Even with the bond broken, there will still be a connection because he's your twin brother." He soothed. I clung to him for dear life as he gently pushed me down onto the bed. He climbed in behind and pulled my back against his chest. "I'll stay as long as you need me," He whispered. "Forever?" I sniffled. "Try and keep me away." He growled lowly. "I love you, Caleb." He breathed. 

I woke up and rubbed my eyes. I felt shocking, my head was pounding and I felt sick again. I sat up and groaned, the room was dark and Dom wasn't here. I knew he had a lot to do that he postponed. I sighed and got out of bed. I went towards the bathroom and looked in the mirror. My eyes were all puffy and they were dark underneath. I looked like I'd been crying for hours and I hadn't had any sleep. 

I started running a bath and leaned against the counter watching it fill up. "Are you ok? I can feel your pain." Dom asked through the link. "I'm going to get a bath, see if that helps ease anything. You could join if you're not busy?" I replied. I just want him near me, I need to feel him. "Never busy for you. Give me 5 minutes and I'll be with you." He answered. I smiled and turned the bath off. I already felt a little better knowing he was coming.

I shrugged off my clothes and stepped into the bath. I laid back and sighed contentedly as the hot water covered my body. The bedroom door opened and I heard him lock the door. I knew it was Dom, I could already feel his scent relaxing me. He poked his head around the door and smiled at me. "How are you feeling?" He asked. He stepped into the room and pulled his clothes off.

"Better." I smiled. I moved further up in the bath to give Dom more room. He stepped in and pulled his foot out quickly cursing. "How fucking hot." He growled. I chuckled and shrugged. "I'm surprised you have any skin left." He rolled his eyes as he turned the cold tap on full. I leaned forward and turned the tap off glaring at him. He chuckled and climbed into the bath.

He sat down, wincing and cursing. I bit back a laugh and wrapped my arms around his waist, pulling his chest against me. "How did the meeting go? Are they all settled?" I asked, tracing my fingers against his abs. He hummed and pressed his back closer to me. "Yeah, they're all shaken up but are grateful for a safe place." He answered. He took a deep breath and sighed, "We need to talk, baby." He whispered.

"I don't want to talk about Malia or Carson." I sighed. "No, you have power." He craned his head to the side and glanced up at me. I lifted my brow at him, "You teleported." He mentioned. My eyes went wide. "No... I didn't, when?" I choked. He smiled at me and hooked his hand behind my head. "Mum said when Malia had her claws in my neck... You appeared in front of her, you saved me. It gave mum plenty of time to get to me to heal me." He breathed. "You also healed me when the rogues attacked here. Mum couldn't because the wound was too deep I think, but your wolf broke through her protective barrier... You saved me more than once." He whispered, his face held more emotion than I could handle.

I leaned forward and crashed my lips against his. He tugged on the back of my hair and moaned into the kiss. He pulled away and rested his head against mine, panting. "What did you stop for?" I sighed breathlessly. "Not tonight, Caleb. You need to sleep, I can still feel conflict and anxiety from you." He muttered. "Not to do with you, I'm never unsure of you." I whimpered, "Please, I need you." I whined. He sighed and shook his head. "Caleb." He warned.

I huffed and stood up out of the bath. I grabbed a towel and wrapped it around myself. I glanced at him he was looking at me, desire was evident in his eyes but he was holding himself back. I huffed again and stormed into the bedroom. I blocked him out from my emotions, I was spiralling out of control again and I couldn't stop it.

I felt rejected, I know he wasn't rejecting me. He was holding back because deep down, I did need rest... I felt ill but I couldn't stop the feeling from creeping up on me. I dried myself and climbed into bed. I sucked in a shaky breath and closed my eyes. I felt him get in behind me, he didn't move to cuddle with me and I felt even more rejected. I didn't understand what was going on with me, a muffled sob escaped as I hid my face into the blanket before he could hear me.