Romie Adler's Musical Guide

Chapter 33: "Too Close" - Alex Clare

Lyrics:

You know I'm not one to break promises
I don't want to hurt you but I need to breathe
At the end of it all you're still my best friend
But there's something inside that I need to release

Which way is right?
Which way is wrong?
How do I say that I need to move on?
You know we're heading separate ways


And it feels like I am just
TOO CLOSE
To love you
There's nothing I can really say
I can lie no more
I can hide no more
Got to be true to myself
And it feels like I am just too close to love you
So I'll be on my way

You've given me more than I can return
Yet there's oh so much you deserve
Nothing to say
Nothing to do
I've nothing to give
I must live without you
You know we're heading separate ways

And it feels like I am just
TOO CLOSE
To love you
There's nothing I can really say
I can lie no more
I can hide no more
Got to be true to myself

And it feels like I am just
TOO CLOSE
To love you
So I'll be on my way
So I'll be on my way

And it feels like I am just
TOO CLOSE
To love you
There's nothing I can really say
I can lie no more
I can hide no more
Got to be true to myself

And it feels like I am just
TOO CLOSE
To love you
So I'll be on my way
So I'll be on my way

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       The next few days were a blur of countless interviews, talk shows, and concert appearances. I felt like a lifeless zombie, I wasn't having any fun. It's been 5 whole days since Jax and I spoke more than two or three words to each other. It was mostly awkward glances exchanged between us.
       Nolan and Kellan tried to yack it up with me, but it just wasn't the same as whatever relationship I had with Jax. Nolan was right, we are the two most stubborn people ever. I can see six months going by before anything becomes resolved, and by then we'll forget what we're even fighting about in the first place, so we'll have to forgive each other. Here's to six months, I'm counting the days.

       Even though it's not Sunday, tonight is family dinner. It's the most awkward one yet, even more awkward than the one I brought Myles to. I didn't think it could ever get more awkward than that one.
       By now, everyone knows that Jax and I aren't talking. They don't know why exactly, thankfully. But that didn't stop them, more like Momma Jones, from trying. She kept trying to start a conversation that involved Jax and I, but we didn't catch the bait she was dangling. We sat across the table from one another, like always, but the only place our eyes were set was on our forks clinging to the dinner plates.
       Nolan was the most talkative for all of us. He was your average everyday chatty cathy. I was surprised he didn't run out of things to say before dinner ended. And then, he did, and everything went silent.