Third Person P. O. V
It had been a couple of days since the gang sign drama first emerged, the company has released a statement, stating that the pictures seen were taken out of context and was actually sign language. They've also taken up on their offer and so, the BTS members would make a video talking about some of their anxiety attacks, panic attacks, and mental health issues as well as why sign language is important in these situations to them. It is a bit scary talking about these sort of things, especially in Asian societies, as mental health is still quite taboo, But they've never been one to stay inside of the box of social norms.
Once Jungkook and Jimin was better, all 7 of them will talk together about it, going in accordance from who has panic attacks and anxiety attacks, which in this case are Namjoon, Jungkook, and Taehyung, although Namjoon doesn't get them as often as he used to anymore. They prepare scripts and reread them, fixing any mistakes they find. They need it to be absolutely perfect, as this was a serious thing to talk about. Setting a good example for Armys is part of the job. They want ARMYs to love themselves, as they've learnt to aswell.
They're proud to be who they are, and that should be displayed through the video.
They'd also be signing in the video as they talk, and though they were fluent, it was still nerve wracking. So they practiced for hours on end, perfecting each sign to make sure they could be understood well.
" Da, check m' speech pwease? , Koo don' know it good or not " Koo mumbles, he was still a bit sick, but he didn't really mind, he wanted to do this just as much as when he's big. Namjoon checks on the grammar of the speech and wording, and smiles softly.
"It's Good Koo baby " he says, handing the paper back to Kookie, who giddily giggles at the compliment and takes the paper back, determined.
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"Appa, s' my sign clear 'nough? " TaeTae asks, signing a sentence over and over, it looked odd, like something was off.
"Oh, lower your hands a little baby" Jimin moves them into the correct position, then let's Tae sign it out.
"Perfect"
"Oh! Thankies appa" Tae says, signing that one word again before nodding his head in contempt.
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'My Name is Min Yoongi' Yoonie signs and then cocks his head, looking at the paper and then at Hoseok, then back to the paper and then back to Hoseok.
" s' Yoonie nono Yoongi :<" Yoonie pouted, he never liked hearing his big name when he was little.
"I know Yoonie bug, I know " Hoseok says smiling at the boy fondly as he watched him sign out the whole speech.
-/ the day of the video release/-
They had shot the video for the mental heath video about a week ago, and just 5 days after the trailer was released. Armys, as usual went a little crazy waiting for the release. They only showed their eyes in the trailer of course, as showing anymore would show the signing.
The trailer was short, a mere 10 seconds, but the actual video was about 16 minutes long, with an interview segment sort of thing at the end to detail.
The video was about to be up and all 7 of them were huddled up on the couch to watch.
"Oh oh oh here we go" and with that the video plays. One by one they come into frame, a simple black and white background and a chair in the middle. They introduce themselves and the problems that they've faced concerning their mental health or self esteem.
-/Quotes from video /- (fiction!)
" Anxiety has affected most aspects of my day to day life. I overthink and worry, and focus too much on miniscule things to where it brings me to tears. Anxiety attacks and Panic attacks weaken my already weak immune system and makes me sick really often. And after them, i tend to overthink more causing me to spiral into another attack, it creates a loop of sorts. I also get episodes where it's almost physically painful to talk or open my mouth, it can go on for days. It's tiring mentally and physically. "-Jungkook
"I think the hardest thing to handle is the constant feeling of being overwhelmed. Everything just feels too tight, too much sometimes and I just shut down completely. Often times staying in a dark freezing room doing absolutely nothing is the only thing that feels tolerable. Anything else would bring me into a melt down."-Taehyung
"Being constantly on the spotlight, people are bound to be judgemental about essentially everything about you. At first I didn't really know how to filter it all out and it eventually took quite a big toll on me. Every time I looked in the mirror I saw another imperfection. I tried changing my appearance a lot, I dieted for weeks on end, I worked out, I did a number of things to get taller, but never did it feel enough to me. It was an obsession with obtaining a look that deep down I knew I couldn't obtain. "-Jimin
"Starting work at a young age was ultimately the best for me now that I'm and adult, however the burden and pressure that I placed on myself was too much for me. And as much as starting early has helped me in my career, I think it's become almost natural for me to put up a standard that's almost impossible to uphold. I push myself beyond my limits and become anxious when anything in my plan shifts. For a long while everything numbed me. I'm only starting to get back to the swing of things. "- Namjoon.
"My image has always been the light and hope of the group, the one who's always smiling and full of life. I personally think it's a good thing to be optimistic and hopeful, but not to the point of being toxic for yourself, you know? I took the role too seriously and started pushing down all the stress, anger, or sadness that I had in me. Though I was still smiling, I slowly became quite bitter and sad." - Hoseok
"Since I was in my teens I have had mental health issues, a mix of having a tough life and stress made me close up and put up a wall over myself. I hid away from people and made myself invisible. I make myself look intimidating and cold even when I'm scared or worried, I quiet down so people wouldn't notice me much even when I have something to say. It's been challenging to change, but I'm grateful that my members are constantly helping me through it. "- Yoongi
"When I first joined into bangtan, I was a bit shocked, they were all so young and yet they were all so talented and good in their field. I fell behind in terms of everything and I started feeling really insecure. For a short while I made myself appear meaner, more dominant I guess to make my stand as the oldest, but slowly it manifested into me just stopping to care. Others started pointing out how left behind I was and I couldn't help but feel so broken. " -Jin
-//-
Once the video was over Koo looks over at Jin with a pout on his face.
" eomma no sad, eomma best eomma evew', Koo love eomma, eomma no sad, eomma's koo eomma. Hmph" Koo babbles on as he hears what Jin says, keeps chanting it out over and over whilst being in Jin's arms. Koo holds on to Jin's arms tightly, reassuring the man. Jin smiles at the boy giving him a kiss and ruffles his hair fondly.
"From what I can see in the comments it's being received well, people are quite happy we signed in the video as well. I'd say the controversy will blow over in a couple days" Namjoon says, looking over the comments their fans have written. The air was still a bit tense and of course the nervousness is still there. They all focus in on what people are saying about it, Even the littles are trying to read out some. As usual there are people who try and say that they were only making this video for pity, but they've gotten used to such comments.
As the comments start to pile and they can no longer read them one by one, they turn the tv off and get on with the rest of their day.
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Literally written at 1 am, might be bad dkxjns ill write another chap as soon as i can
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