I'm A Lil' ( a BTS Littles fic!)(ABANDONED)

2 ( A Little Push Over the Edge)

Third Person P. O. V

Despite getting the okay from his members Namjoon couldn't help but feel embarassed and a bit insecure about his other side. Namjoon asked Jay to come with to the practice room with them to be by his side. Jay happily accepted each time, she was the health and safety suprivisor, so it still counted as her being on the job, besides, watching them was much more fun than sitting in an office arranging stuff all day.
Namjoon was really quiet around the dorm after that day, he hasn't slipped into little space even once, he didn't want to be seen. Though the others agreed to help him and become his caregivers when he slipped, Namjoon still felt bad for slipping in the first place.
The other managers and staff caught on Namjoon's behavioral change, they were worried that he might be so stressed that he'd slip on stage, and to be completely honest, that was plausible. They didn't want that to happen, so they called PD-nim and told him about the situation.

Jay's P. O. V

Today I was joining the boys doing their routine of practice, to supervise. I'd only come along for Namjoon though. He hadn't slipped in 3 weeks, and he always slips when he's stressed. The work was hard and demanding, there's no chance Namjoon isn't stressed and yet...

The fact that he's holding everything is making him stress more and I know it's hurting him, I know it's making him lose his mind, he could barely focus on anyone. I've got to make him slip somehow. My train of thought was interrupted by a text notification from PD-nim.

Bang PD: I heard from other managers that Namjoon hasn't been slipping. Today's practice, bring him and the others. I've informed the others about him slipping before practice and how they're going to take care of him, Kay?

Jay: will do.

"Boys come on! You have practice! "I called them down. The boys and a very quiet Namjoon came stumbling out the door with their bags into the car, I followed behind them. The staff back at the building must be ecstatic, they haven't gotten to see Joonie little in quite a long time, it's been like.. 4 months. I got into the van sliding between Jungkook and Namjoon. I bought my backpack filled with.. Everything. From Pacifiers to milk to onesies. Just to make Joon slip. Namjoon's head rested on my shoulder, I noticed and started stroking his head. I might be 15, but he likes it and.. It helps him with stress sometimes..

"Joon.. Are you okay? " Namjoon closed his eyes.

"Yeah... " he said in a whisper.

"Why are you forcing yourself to not slip? " I said, wrapping an arm around him, while still stroking his head.

"It's embarrassing.... It hurts to hold it in.. "

"I know it does.. But the boys know and they accept you as you are. " I said unwrapping my hands and stopping the stroking, I looked at him, a single tear makes it way down his cheek.
"Hey hey, you're okay, I'm here for you, you're always safe with me " I wiped away the tear with my thumb.

"Momma.. " Joon's slipping!

"Hi baby~"I cooed, he made grabby hand towards me,

Awwww

I wrapped my arms around him and he smiled. I opened my backpack and took out a pacifier and blankie. I placed the Pacifier into his mouth, he began to suck on it and giggle.

"Hyungies!  " Joonie called out, realizing that he's surrounded by them, the cute act made everyone coo, it  melted everyone's hearts collectively
Joonie clapped his hands together and giggled at all the attention... He likes attention. The whole ride he was being coddled.

//at bighit//

We walked through the doors, Joonie safe in Jungkook's arms. He had a baby blue pacifier and a blanket that matched with him. All the staff gasped as they ssw him , they surrounded Him. It had been a while and they haven't seen him in a few months so they were all ecstatic to see him. Even PD-nim came out to see Joonie and pinch his cheeks.

"Joonie, Look what uncle got for you! " Shihyuk says, grabbing Joonie's attention quickly. Shihyuk was standing by a door, Joonie assumed the surprise was behind  the door. When Shihyuk opened the door slowly and revealed the surprise, You could hear the gasps. Joonie's eyes lit up and he started looked at it with awe

"Hyungie Downies! Pwease! Down! " Namjoon started tapping Jungkook's arm like crazy. Jungkook put him down and as soon as his legs touched the floor, he ran towards the gift, hugging it. Shihyuk had gotten him a teddy bear, not just any teddy bear,.. A 6 foot tall teddy bear... To put into view how tall that is...  The bear was literally taller than Joonie, And Joonie is very tall.

" I wuv it." He hugged the teddy bear tightly in his arms, though he couldn't wrap his arms around it fully. Joonie hid his face into the soft plush, giggling into it.After a little while, and a lot of pring Joonie stop hugging the bear,  PD-nim led us to the practice room, so that I could teach the boys how to care for Joonie when he's in little space.

I'm pretty sure they know how to take care of a child, the basics atleast ,so i feel like that would help a little. I taught them how to make a bottle, how to calm him down when he's crying, what to do if he's feeling sad , what to do when he's sick,and his to change a diaper.  All the things that caregivers should know, I taught. Joonie was excited that he could be in his headspace infront of the boys, and that he doesn't have to hide it anymore.

I could tell from the practice who Joonie was going to pick as his main caregiver, other than me of course,  It's quite evident. He has been staring fondly at Jungkook from across the room for 10 minutes, as he's taken a liking to being held by him. I'm ninety five percent sure that Jungkook was going to be the chosen one. He's just clinging onto Jungkook and may I say, it's adorable, Absolutely adorable.

The day was long, and after getting everything done, Joonie was feeling sleepy, the boy's barely able to keep his eyes open. He instinctively cuddled into Jungkook, leaning into the warmth.

"M' sweepy Da.. "