Jungkook P. O. V
"I miss chu" before he hung up,
"Awwwwwe" the others cooed, Tae-hyung was giggling
I just can't !! !I fell to the floor clutching my heart "the cuteness is too much for me! "
"Jungkook ,you're to over dramatIc" Yoongi scoffed then, took the bottle ,checking its temperature and walking off to the practice room where Namjoon was. We ran towards the practice room too ,we all wanted to be the one that fed Namjoon. And I will not let it be another person. I ran with all my might, snatching the bottle out of Yoongi's hand.
"Aha! " I said
"THANKS! " Tae-hyung said snatching the bottle from me and dashing into the practice room. By the time I was in there Namjoon was on Tae's lap, Tae panting while holding the bottle. Tae stuck his tongue out at me and I frowned. Welp.
"Jungkook! " Jay said from behind me making me jump up a little.
"Jay, you scared the sh-" Jay pointed at Joonie who was staring and listening in
"-oe off of me! " yes shoe.. That's the best I could think of. Jay face palmed.
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Tae's P. O. V
Namjoon was in my lap ,drinking a bottle. It made me want to slip ,but I knew that if the others knew they might judge me ,like they first did with Joonie ,and.... I don't want that.. Taetae won't want that.... It made me so sad that only PD-nim knew ,stylist noon knew, and about 10 other staffs knew. And well Sejin-nim ,but he never seen me in little space before. Yes, I'm a little too, and I'm in pain.... I haven't slipped in literally half a year and the last time I slipped ,it was only for a good 10 minutes. I was and still am pressured to control it ,to deal with the pain of not slipping, the constant anxiety and stress attacks that no one knows of. It hurts me, Tae-hyung, and TaeTae.
"J-Jungkook can you take over ,I need to talk to PD-nim for a bit... " I said, Jungkook nodded. He raised a eyebrow ,but he fortunately let it slide. I went out of the practice room and ran straight to PD-nims office. I knocked on the door and heard a "come in! " before entering.
"PD-nim, I... "
"Slip? "I nodded vigorously ,he locked the door and let me Tae a seat ,he brought out the box that I kept in his office incase I needed to slip. I took out my Pacific and blacked and slowly let myself slip into little space.. ..
"TaeTae ,you know you could tell hyungies that you are a little right? " Uncle Shi-hyuk said
"Yeah.... Bu' wast time Joonie swip ' and evewy'one Judgy ,TaeTae no wanna' dat" I said, Shi-hyuk ruffled my hair.
"Let's go to the empty practice room okay? I'll call Sejin and your stylist noona" I nodded ,I flooded along with Uncle's plan.
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"Thanks for that Sejin-nim , Bang PD-nim, and stylist noona ,I really needed to slip... " I said bowing, I slipped for 2 hours so that's good! And Noona told me that she would love to help me when I slipped ,which is helpful .. I'm going to slip more often..
PD-nim handed me a backpack full of new little stuff and a can full of air with the attachment ,to help me breath when I'm I have an anxiety attack. He got me 3 so when I run out I can just come to him. He also got me my anxiety and stress pills ,don't worry they are prescribed. I only use them when I'm in an anxiety attack, it helps me calm down quickly.
"Okay, just don't hesitate to tell us when you're about to slip or when you have an anxiety attack okay? " Noona said, the others looked at me too
"Yes noona... Yes Sejin-nim.... Yes Bang PD-nim.. Bye" I bowed again and walked of to the Practice room where the others were.
"TaeTae Hyungie! " Namjoon Jumped on me, I placed the backpack on the floor and sat on the sofa.
"What took you so long? " Jungkook asked me
"I just had a chat ,that's all. " I said., then Joonie started jumping up and down. I looked over and he got my stuffed in his arms.. My stuffy
"Is dis' fow' me Hyungie?! " He asked, smiling widely
"Sorry Joon ,it's for someone else"
"Ochay. " he pouted and his bottom lip started to tremble.
"Tae - hyung ,give it to him...look at him... " I saw Joon crying, and my stuffy on the ground. I walked over to the stuffy and was going to place it in my bag when...
"Tae-hyung. " Jungkook looked at me, his eyes piercing daggers into my heart. I didn't know what to do I didn't want Kookie to hate me ,but that it is one of the only stuffies I had and PD-nim hmgave it to me ,I can't let it go! It hurts to see Joon crying, but it hurts more that I can't play when in little space
"Jungkook I can't.. " Jungkook walked over to Joon rubbing circles into his back. Pressure... Fear.. .Anxiety. My heart started pounding rapidly, I could feel myself lose control in one thing came into my mind
Anxiety attack
My breathing turned haywire and my head started feeling light headed. I pulled on my hair I could feel my head throbbing, I grabbed my bag and took out my phone, I dialed PD-nim
"Tae? "
"p-practice room ,anxiety, help" I said between breaths then hung up. I took my anxiety pills and gulped them down with water
"Tae?! " Jimin shouted, grabbing unto my shoulder. The boys and Jay crowded around me. I grabbed the can of air and placed it on my nose and mouth and pressed the top of the can, breathing the oxygen in. I closes my eyes wanting the pain to go away, I could hear the yelling if my band members around me ,along with Jay. I could hear the door opening.
"Tae! " PD-nim shouted ,he held up the oxygen can and held up my head. I opened my eyes to see him.
"It's okay, calm down.. .Nothing's wrong... " he said rubbing circles on my back. My breathing slowly became normal , The boys still asking questions about what just happened.
"You okay? " PD-nim asked, I nodded
"Thankyou PD-nim.. "I said leaning unto him
"Call me uncle.. " PD-nim said, I smacked his shoulder playfully
"What happened exactly? " I whispered the whole story to him, to which me nodded.
"He won't hate you for that, especially if knew Tae. .You need to tell them"
"No... Can't" PD-nim sighed, then ruffled my hair. Then someone else came into the room ,Sejin and Noona?? What are they doing here?!
"Tae you okay?we heard you got an anxiety attack " they said in unison, crouching infront of me. I was sitting down, leaning on the mirror with PD-nim.
"Yeah... " I said Sejin sat beside me on my left.
"Slip? "
"Want to... But they're around"
"Come on... Don't let them stop you" I smiled ,Sejin picked me up and started bouncing me like a baby making me giggle, here we slip again...
Sejin opened the bag up and got a blankie
"Bwankie!! " I said reaching for my blanket...
"Tae's a little?!?! "
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I'm A Lil' ( a BTS Littles fic!)(ABANDONED)
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