Why can't you love me...

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Hi I'm so so sorry, I've bin going through a really hard time. My sister passed. So I haven't bin posting once again I'm sorry, but here is my new story!)

(Flash back 5 years later)

Why...
why did you leave, you promised me with your life that you wouldn't leave. I tried everything to get you not to leave, but you still chose her, am I not love able...

Do you have me. Or am I just going crazy, because that's why I left because so thought I was all alone. You promised me that if I went through a hard time you would be there for me. But when I called you or owled you... you didn't answer. Because you were with her. She's perfect, straight As, hour glass body. Just perfect.

      But what's wrong with me. I don't think I'm all that bad. And after all I was with you all these years. I was with you when you had to join the dark side. I WAS WITH YOU AND YOU CHOSE HER EVEN THOUGH SHE WAS HERE FOR 2 MONTHS NOW. I hate you, but I love you...

       Why... I still love you. After everything you put me through after all the pain. Torturing that you son of a bitch, father did to me. And you sat there looking at me like I was nothing like I was rubbish waiting to be picked up.

      You know what. That's why I give up. Fuck you. I love you so much, and that's why I hate you. Your to love able, I want you to live on with your life, with her. I wish it was me but... it's not. And I know that now.

        Let's face it, it's always bin her hasn't it. I love you~Love Izzy