Saving Conner

Heart Without a Beat

Kenzie wait up!" I shouted chasing her.

She whipped around and caused me to stop dead in my tracks. "Why didn't you tell me?" She hissed.

"I was about to, but then Conner came over. I was going to tell you after talking to him. I didn't want you to find out this way."

"You know Brook, you really know how to stab someone in the back. I told YOU I loved Blade and what did you do? Try to make out with him or something. That's not what friends do. Maybe you are just like Abby." She stared at me for a while letting me sink in everything she had just said before continuing. "I listened to you talk about her and how evil she is and then I even punched her in the face. I did all this just for you to turn around and hurt me."

"I didn't do anything." I mumbled.

"What's that?" She said putting her hand to her ear. "Did you say you didn't do anything? You're right Brook you didn't do anything. You should have pushed him away and told me right after it happened instead of IGNORE me. The only reason I found out is because I came down here to make sure you was okay."

"Can you just listen to me for once!" I screamed. "I'm sorry for what I'd did. I didn't call because I didn't know how to tell you. Yes I messed up I admit that and I'm very thankful for what you have done for me. But you should let me explain what happened and not just yell at me, when you only heard half the story."

She stared at me with hatered, but agreed to let me atleast tell her the whole story that happened.

We walked back down stairs to the lounge. I didn't know how Kenzie would take it considering she got into a fight before over someone calling her boyfriend cute.

She sat down on the couch and placed her hands between her leg, waiting patiently for me to talk.

I took a deep breath and started telling her the whole story. Once I finished she sat there quietly and looked at her hands.

I could have swear I saw a tear fall from her face. I couldn't stand to see her cry and it was all my fault.

I walked up to her and sat down pulling her into a hug. I didn't expect her to hug back, but for some odd reason she did.

After about five minutes, she finally stopped crying.

"I forgive you." She said pulling away. "But it will take time for me to trust you again."

"I understand, I'm just glad you're still be in my life. Can we just start over?" I pleaded.

She smiled and reached her hand out. "I'm Kenzie."

"Brook."

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I finally rolled out of bed and made my way to the bathroom.

I hardly got any sleep due to all the tossing and turning.

I was depressed needless to say, but it was my fault. I should have never went to Conner's that night. I should have stayed home.

Being single wasn't that bad, but having them hate me is what sucked the most.

Even though Kenzie forgives me, she still doesn't necessarily want to hang out right now. I don't blame her, she stuck up for me when Abby kissed Conner and then spilled her heart out to me about Blade. What did I do? I went behind her back and almost kissed Blade.

I didn't even like him other than as a friend. I should have pushed him away, but instead when he was leaning in I just stood there. Maybe I was in shock, or maybe I was heartbroken and didn't care.

Either way I dug myself a hole and instead of digging my way out I kept digging deeper and deeper. Soon I'd be a the center of hell and no way to return.

I undressed slowly and turned the water on hot. The mirror started to cloud up with steam, assuring me that as soon as I got in the water I was going to scream in pain.

The hot shower relaxed me, temporarly washing away all the stress built up inside of me.

The room filled with the smell of lavendar and vanilla. It was one of my favorite scents. I just wish the smell would linger on my body longer then thirty minutes after the shower.

I looked in the mirror and smiled. I might feel like crap, but I diffenently didn't want to look like it.

I already was hurt from what had happend and if I walked around looking bad people would ask me what's wrong. I didn't want to tell anyone. It would just open the wounds up again and cause me to cry. So for now I will keep all the sadness locked up and stored inside me for a different day.

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Short Chapter, but the next will be a little lengther I promise. Also it might be a couple of days before I update due to personal reasons. It won't be longer than three days.

XoXo
Lindsey