Water Flows Like True Love (Albedo X Sucrose)

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Love is such an chaotic feeling I will never adapt to, because it's so hard to understand. But even if it is, Love for me is what I feel towards Endora. Because Endora is like a part of my soul holding my hand. Is such a strange feeling, but one day I'm going to discover what it is.

One day I discovered that a close friend of mine was in love with me because the one I was in love with told me about his feelings, and somehow I was excited because I've never thought of someone finding something good in me but alchemy. And his feelings towards me were true, but not mine. And I was afraid of dissapoint him. But even if my feelings weren't True Love, I still liked being with someone who appreciates me.

But my fantasy didn't last long because he, Mr. Albedo, was planning on changing his assistant at the same time I decided to go out with Timaeus. I don't know if it was a bad timing or a really bad coincidence. He made me work more than the usual and I never had time for myself. So, between my tasks, I had secret dates with Timaeus, but none of them convinced me.

In between of a Secret Date with Timaeus, one of the Knights of Favonius saw "the girl I usually walk around with" going out of the City of Mondstadt, and I got panicked. When I arrived at the Seat of the Knights of Favonius, I realized that Klee's place was full of bubbles. Klee said that Endora did that, and I was surprised. She was supposed to not have Hydro Powers, but it seems to be something more than that

As soon I realized Endora was about to face Oceanid, I teleported the quickest to Qingste Village, but fortunately Albedo was there to protect her. Klee teleported After me, and we both came into the scene. We fought until Oceanid decided to give up. And after that, I leaved with Endora. I don't know if I was upset with Albedo, or just dissaponinted about his behavior. Anyway, I thanked him about his presence and leaved.

I finished my tasks early, but I waited in my house for the next of today. Endora was tired, so I got her into her room and lulled her to sleep. I walked downstairs for doing some coffee, and then, someone knocked my door. He was there, with a Crab, Ham & Veggie Bake and some Sweet Flowers in his hands. He used to give me Frozen Sweet Flowers when he came back from Dragonspine, and that habit just dissapeared with the time, and the situation.

We didn't take too much because I was tired and I wanted to go to the point. He was clear; He wanted to give me the next tasks. And I wasn't expecting something else! I just thought he would've liked talking about... Our relationship? Can we call it like that?

When checking the tasks, I realized they all were about resting; Have an eight hours sleep, having a healthy breakfast, doing some slight excersices and stuff like that. He thought I was upset about all the work he put on me before, and he leaves the quickest, but before leaving my place, I held his hand, and thanked him.

-"Thank you for the present, Mr. Albedo." - I spoke without looking into him. -"I will do my tasks as soon as I can."

-"Take your time on it, Sucrose. Don't rush, we have no rush." - He said back, when he finally leaved the place.

I passed all night thinking about what made him change his opinion. Is because he realized I am useless and prefers me to not work? Or he's just giving me free time before he fires me? Any way, I will work for him if I want to be a high class alchemist like him. But one day, Sucrose. One day I will.

The next day, me and Endora went to the Good Hunter for having breakfast. Timaeus, who was already at the Alchemy Place, greeted me and Endora at the distance. He walked to my table and asked if he could sit with us. I said yes. We talked about how was our day, and if Endora was okay. I said yes once again. And that's how our conversation have always been; He speaks, I agree. I'm used to have conversations like that, but it's not the way I would like to converse with a romantic partner. We didn't complement each other. But after all we spoke, he finally made the question I've been waiting for.

-"And, Sucrose? Do you have an answer now?" - Timaeus asked.

In all of our secret dates, Timaeus and I had a deal: After a certain time, I was supposed to give him an answer about my feelings, but the truth is that I don't understand them either.

By one side, I have Timaeus, who is having his attention on me, who have beautiful feelings towards an ugly alchemist as me, but still likes me. And at the other side I have my first love, Albedo, who almost fire me for not obeying him at my first date with Timaeus. Now I realize, is it a coincidence that he wanted to change his assistant when I was going out with Timaeus? But wasn't him who told me Timaeus likes me?

Albedo have never been someone who shows affection, and that makes me doubt so much. But that doesn't change the fact that my feelings for Timaeus are nothing but admiration. What's the point of going out with him, if I can't tell him how do I feel? And I started to feel guilty.

And now, he's asking me how do I feel, but How do I really feel? And I answered to myself.

"When You're Here, my heavy body turns into a feather
And when you hug me like that, my cold heart turn into a bonfire
But when you leave, even the hardest stone called heart can be easily broken
You make my body act for itself, even if I don't understand.
And I'm asking you politely to please stay."

I have no intention of dating someone who I'm not interested in. My feelings are chaotic, and I have no intention of hurting someone I admire with them. Then, I have an answer. I finally have an answer for Timaeus question.

-"Timaeus, My answer is No."