BOSS

11 • Trying

House

Siting here, watching Ian call me over and over again. Watching Samia eat her breakfast Sami made so, I can drop her off at school. She allows me to come over and see her. We have a marriage counselor to see again today.

She don't want to be there no more than me. I can see she want's it to be over, I want her back even after her teying to kill me. It that bad? I mean I messed up big time, there is no excuse. We've been going through things that no one knew about. Ian, he was just there for me. Samia is not his child.

"Mommy, you okay today?"

"Yes, mommy is just a little bit tired. I didn't sleep good at home" I smiled at her.

"Why you there? This still your first home right?" She asked. "When you coming back?" She asked and Sami came into the dining room.

"Samia please eat, so you won't be late again. You don't have to pick her up. We have that meeting and Tuva is going to pick her up," she said.

"Okay," I replied.

"Aunt Andrea said she can't stand being in a wheelchair" Samia said laughing. "She makes her own jokes, will she walk again?"

"Baby eat" I said.

"I'm full. I go get my shoes. Be nice" she said to us running out. But she turned right around and grabbed the spoon from the table taking it with her.

As if she was scared to leave it with us, because she initially did see Sami stabbing me that night.

"I didn't mean for her to see that. I didn't mean for that to happen...I know she is scared of me now."

"I know, and Samia isn't scared of you, she just likes that gold spoon" I lied, smiling but she didn't smile back.

"Yeah, look. I don't think it's a good idea for you to stay here again. I tried, but I can't" she said.

"I umm understand. I was informed by the lawyers that I was taken off of everything and dropped from the company. I just wanted to make sure I seen her as much as possible before I left" I said.

I am moving back to Compton, home. It's fine I was stupid to never save money to stay where I wanted.

She just stared at me as I got up.

"I'll go wait outside for Samia" I said. " oh, here is the key, and the car key" I said sitting them down.

She didn't say anything and I said nothing also. I just wished we didn't have all our money in the same account and she gives me nothing. It's fine, it is what I deserve completely.