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Watching Rye sleep in the guest room. She even shakes in her sleep, she snores now, whimpers. Is it wrong that I miss her? I missing laughing with her, touching her. Being intimate with her, watching her smile and be playful. Her trying to be mean and dominant me.

Is it wrong to want my wife back because she cheated? I'm lost and I don't know how to feel about her. With so much shit going on, I don't know where to start.

"What you doing?" Awa asked standing behind me with Luxe and Milo in her arms.

"Just checking on her" I said.

"At three am?" She asked.

"I know" I said.

"I been hearing you walk over here like every thirty minutes" she said.

"I know she is still using" I replied closed the door.

"We finally chatted the other day before June went all June on her friends. And I don't know if she is, she does seem twitchy and things, but she might be trying to stop alone" Awa added.

"Awa, I don't know what to do."

"Get her some help, if you want to actual be there now Sami. She is addict now, she needs you. She messed up, but Rye didn't deserve all of that" she said, she put down her dogs and walked away.

I love Rye, like I love this woman.

"Rye?" I tapped her.

"Yes?" She said.

"Ryleigh wake up" I said.

"Sorry, huh? Is Samia okay?" She asked.

"She is fine, just want to talk" I said.

"Okay?" She sat up and I turned her light on.

"Are you still using drugs?" I asked and she just stared at me. "I want to get you the help that you need" I said.

"I'm not addicted" she said, she's not trying to convince me she is trying to convince herself.

"I know, but I want you to get some help" I said.

She just nodded her head, she knows that she is addicted, it's not going to help with me down her throat about it.