We'll meet again-phan

7- Phils Pov

3 months have passed quicker than I thought they would, but they were the best 3 months. Dan was going back today, but he said he had enough time to stay for Jocie's party. Speaking of Dan, he came up from behind and hugged me. He was in his uniform which made me sad but I tried not to show it "everything looks wonderful" I nod and hum in agreement, looking around at my work. Joce will be back from school any minute and we were gonna do presents first then when guests show up, we'll have the party. My attention is drawn to the door knocking "guests already?" I go to open the door and see it's Dan parents "mr and Mrs Howell! How wonderful!" I let them in, taking the presents and putting them away "how many times do we have to tell you Phil, call us mum and dad" I chuckle at that, watching Dan try to resist the kisses from his mum "I'll try to remember" I take the coats and put those away too, smiling at the scene "doesn't he look smashing in his uniform?" Dan gets free from his mums kisses and rubs his cheek, watching me walk up "yes, he looks very handsome" Dan kisses my cheek making me smile making Mrs Howell aw "awwww, your still the cutest couple I've ever seen!" I blush in embarrassment "mum!" I check my watch, no not yet "are you alright Phil?" I nod, putting my hand down and giving Dan's parents my fill attention. Dan had told them that I had another panic attack last night, he was calling to try and cancel thinking I wasn't up for a party but I told him I was fine "I think you need to get those attacks sorted out, boy" I chuckle, rubbing the back of my neck nervously "so Dan keeps telling me" Dan was about to say something until he sees the school bus pulling up and I go to greet her. I stand outside the house and crouch, opening my arms for her to run into. She spots me and runs into my arms "happy birthday! Did you have a good school day?" I pick her up and carry her into the house, listening to her story about her school day. Once I walk into the living room Dan runs up and scoops her from my arms "happy birthday, munchkin!" He covers her in kisses and I watch with adoring eyes

I watch Jocie chatting it up with her friends as my parents talk to me "ever thought of having another child?" I laugh at my mums question, drinking some lemonade "nah, Jocie's enough. I don't even think Dan would be up to it" I smile as Joce plays with her friends, running to the bouncy castle "your mother and I have been thinking and we think that you should stop singing" I almost choke on my drink, staring at them "and you decided this when?" Hearing this seemed to summon Dan as he walked up from behind me to join in with the conversation "I'm sure Dan would agree that singing isn't for you, love. We think you should get a job that's stable for your mental health" I look up at Dan wide eyed who shook his head as in saying 'I don't agree with this' and we both turned to my parents "I'm getting better at controlling my panic attacks" Dan nodded in agreement, holding me close "we don't want you ending up in hospital again, you nearly died. Why don't you become a teacher or something" I ran my fingers through my hair, breathing intensely "because teaching isn't my passion, singing is and I don't want to do something that's 'stable for my mental health'. I want to something that I love, even if it means living life on the edge" Dan leant down and whispered in my ear that he has to go now. I nodded and pulled him down by his collar, kissing him. A long and passionate one "come back alive" he nodded and went to hug Jocie

I drove Dan to the airport, staying in complete silence. My parents words played in my mind, over and over again. I helped Dan get his luggage out of the boot and sighed, passing it to him "don't listen to your parents, darling" I chuckle and stand next to the car, crossing my arms "maybe they're right" Dan took my hands and looked at me "no they're not, your an amazing singer Phil and I agree with you. Do what you love, not what they think is stable" I kiss his hands smiling and hug him tightly, not ever wanting to let go. I don't want to let him go, what is he doesn't make it? "don't go" he rubbed circles into my back, smiling and kissing my neck lovingly "I have to, but I'll come back" I pull away kissing his cheek, trying to keep my tears from falling "you better come back" he kisses me unexpectedly, pushing me into our car. He pinned me against the car, kissing me. I let him do this, smiling into the kiss. He pulls away and rests his forehead against mine with his eyes closed "I love you" we hear a PA announcement calling all soldiers who haven't boarded the plane to board. I feel a lump in my throat and my heart stop. I intertwine my fingers with his and let him go. I close my eyes and fall against the car, but I don't stop falling. I keep falling, deeper and deeper. Darker and darker. I get control of my breathing again and open the car door, heading home

I finish cleaning up, watching Jocie play with her new toys making me smile. I sigh, collecting the wrapping paper from the floor and looking up to the shelf above fireplace staring at the picture of the 3 of us. The day we met Joce. I smile fondly, letting my mind take me down memory lane

Flashback
I smiled, walking with Dan hand in hand. Dan went up to the office as I stood there patiently. There were lots of children there that I wanted but my eyes drifted to a little red haired girl, sitting alone in a corner. I kept my eyes on her until I had to fill out my information. Dan noticed who I was looking at and also went to look at her. The poor girl saw us looking and waved making Dan wave back. I walked up and crouched down smiling sweetly "hello there, I'm Phil. What's your name?" Dan joined me, kneeling next to me "J..Jocelyn" me and Dan looked at the small girl smiling "Jocelyn is a beautiful name, I'm Dan" she nodded at him, not quite knowing what to say. Dan smiled at the young girl, admiring her cuteness "did anything exciting happen today?" She shook her head, looking down avoiding us "no just the usual. The other girls are mean to me" Dan looked back at some of the girls tutting "they don't seem very nice" he turned back to her and she shook her head, tensing a bit and letting her red curls fall in her face "they refuse to call me 'Jocie', even though I want them too. Everyone calls me 'Jocelyn'" I smiled at her, smiling sympathetically "want to hear a secret?" Her eyes lit up and she nodded enthusiastically. I giggled and leaned in, whispering in her ear "my full name is 'Philip' and Dan's is 'Daniel' but we prefer people to call us 'Dan' and 'Phil'" I pull away smiling, acting like that's a huge secret. Her eyes widen "and people actually call you that?" Dan nodded, looking over at me and her eyes drifted to my ring "that's a pretty ring!" I tilt my head in confusion before realising what she was talking about and I look down humming in agreement "it is, isn't it? It's my wedding ring" her eyes lit up again and she started beaming, asking for photos if we had any and if we didn't mind. I giggled and got out my phone and scrolled through my phone until I got to our wedding photo "here we are" I showed her the photo smiling proudly at Dan who was smiling at Jocie "wow, that looks nice" I take my phone back, switching it off and putting it back in my bag "it was, luckily it was a nice day too" I hummed at Dan as he said that. We heard a bell ring and the caretaker yelling 'times up' and all the girls, including Jocie, got up and ran away. We both got up smiling "I think she's the one" Dan looked at me and exhaled sweetly, folding his arms "I think she is" we turn to the caretaker asking us if we have chosen "yes, Jocelyn"
End of flashback