Once Upon An Us

KABANATA 12

I hate you

Naurong 'yung plans namin ni Trix na umuwi ng Manila. It's been a week actually. And i'm still waiting for Gavin to contact me. Ano bang mahirap sa mag update manlang? I can't believe him. One week without telling me where he is.

"Girl, sure na daw bukas na tayo uuwi ng Manila." sabi sa'kin ni Trix. Nginitian ko naman siya. Nasa sala kami at pareho lang kaming nag ce-cellphone.

Gavin is really driving me crazy. The fuck wala kahit message sa'kin? Mababaliw na yata ako kakaisip kung ano bang nangyari sa kanya. Triny ko naman siyang tawagan kaso naka off 'yung phone niya.

Habang busy kami sa pag ce-cellphone. Nagulat ako nang hilain ako ni Trix patabi sa kanya.

"Girl, you need to see this." napa titig naman ako sa kanya parang ang seryoso niya naman masyado.

"What is that?." i asked then nilapit niya lang sa'kin 'yung phone niya. Pagkakita ko si Gavin 'yon with Allyson. Nasa beach sila kasama 'yung family ni Gavin at ang caption pa doon nung Allyson. 'Congrats to me! Super happy to have Gavin with me, thanks also for coming in my graduation.'

Is this enough evidence to know that Gavin is really not serious about us? Maybe he is just really toying me. He promised that he'll never leave and he promised that he will be in my graduation day. Kahit nga 'di na siya umattend ng graduation okay lang, eh. Basta i-update niya ako kung nasaan siya.

"Ayan ba ang emergency?." seryosong ani ni Trix. 'Di ko na siya nagawang tignan at pumasok na sa kwarto. Maybe he has reasons, maybe i don't need to come up with stupid ideas, maybe he has a fucking good reasons for not texting or even calling me. Masama na ba mag-alala ngayon?

I was crying. Gavin is really giving me a motive to give up again. But i need to be strong. Ayoko nang mangyari 'yung nangyari dati. I can't let him go. I can't leave him. I just need to calm and trust him. Maybe they're just friends.

Trix hug me and tap my shoulder. I'm still crying she was comforting me.

"Hush everything will be okay. Don't think too much." she said. Tinignan ko naman siya sa mata.

"I already said sorry for leaving him a year ago because i thought he was cheating. And he said that we're both okay. He promised me many things. Two months na kaming mag-kasama dito masaya naman kami, eh. He maked me feel loved. But why do i feel this? Na parang laro na lang lahat? Am i being o.a? ." i said while crying. I just really can't believe him. One week without calling me and even updating me. I hate him for leaving me and making me feel this way.

"Hush just wait for him. Maybe he has reasons. Don't cry i'm sorry pina kita ko pa sa'yo 'yon." ani ni Trix. Kinunutan ko naman siya ng noo. She don't need to say sorry.

I pinch her. Gosh she don't need to say sorry. "Silly you don't need to say sorry. Thank you for letting me now where the hell is Gavin." i said then laugh. I need to calm. You got this Gemini.

Pauwi na kami ng Manila at maaga kaming umalis. I'm also planning na mag apply na sa ibang school. Naka hanap na din kasi ako ng apartment while Trix is staying in Peter's condo. Nagka balikan na yata 'yung dalawa.

Nasa car na kami at nasa tabi ko si Trix natutulog. I get my earphones in my bag then nagpa tugtog na lang ako. Hindi ko na din masyasong iniisip si Gavin. Ayoko ma-stress ng sobra.

Pero i'm still waiting for him.

Gavin is calling...

Nanlaki naman ang mata ko at madali ko itong sinagot.

"Sorry, now lang ako nakatawag." ayon agad 'yung bungad niya sa'kin. Napangiti naman ako ng mapait.

"I miss you." ayon lang lumabas sa bibig ko. I really miss him.

"I miss you too. I'm really sorry. I'll make up with you. Diba pauwi na kayo sa Manila?." tanong nito.

"Yup, we are on our way."

"I'll wait in your apartment. Ingat kayo. I love you." napangiti naman ako. Well i am not angry anymore.

"Uhuh i love you too." pagkasabi ko no'n hinihintay namin kung sino magbababa ng tawag.

"End the call, Isaih."

"You end the call." pagpilit ko. Tinawanan ko naman siya at pinatay na ang tawag.

I am already calm. He called me and i am very happy. I am excited to see him. Napangiti naman ako, he has reasons i know. One mistake is already enough, ayoko nang maulit 'yon uli.

***

I am finally in my apartment, kanina pa wala si Trix kasi nauna siyang ihatid sa condo ni Peter.

As soon as i enter the apartment Gavin is at the sala and he is cleaning. He looked so hot. His sharped jaw. His biceps. And his side profile he is very handsome. He is wearing a Black t-shirt and a sweatpants and he really look good. Wait what? May mga gamit na 'yung loob ng apartment.

Binitawan ko ang bag na hawak ko at tumakbo papalapit sa kanya.

I hug him and he hugged me back.

"I miss you." i whispered. He kissed my forehead.

"I miss you more." he said. Humarap ako sa kanya at ngumuso.

"I take it back, i don't miss you anymore." ani ko at umupo sa sofa na nandoon sa sala. He looked at me with a puzzled look. Gosh 'di niya alam kung anong ginawa niya. Mas lalo tuloy akong naiinis.

He sit in my side then he is hugging me. "I am so sorry. I just need to go back to Manila because Dad said that i need to sign the papers that we needed for the company." he explained. But i am still not convinced on what he said.

I looked at him with a very serious face and i raised my brow at him. Ayoko nagagalit ako at alam niya 'yan.

He holds my hand and he explain again. "Dad said that i just need to sign the papers asap. But i turns out that the daughter of the client wants to see me. Because she owe me big time." napakunot naman 'yung noo ko. Is he taking about Allyson?

"Hmm is that Allyson? I heared you're talking to your Dad." simpleng ani ko. I looked at him. But he still looks calm. 'Di ako papayag na 'di niya sagutin lahat ng tanong ko.

"And i called you the night that you leave me but that girl Allyson pick up the phone. So, how can you explain that, Klaus?." i said in a pissed tone. I am pissed.