Once Upon An Us

KABANATA 20

Fine

This days i am always busy. It's been 3 months. Come to think of it 3 months without us seeing each other. Last na kita namin nung nalasing pa ako. I asked him if i can call him now and he said that later na lang daw he's with his family daw kasi. They have a vacation yata for 3 days. And i am always waiting for him to reply on my messages. He's always saying that he's busy, walang signal, or hindi nag notif sa phone niya. To be honest i know there is something off. If he wanted to talk with me there is a lot of way he can do.

I sighed. I felt like he's hiding something.

It's Saturday now and Trix asked me if pwede ko ba siya samahan sa grocery store and i said yes. Dapat kasi Saturday and Sunday pupuntahan ko si Gavin but wala naman siya dito sa Manila.

I just wore a black shirt then a high waist shorts. It was simple.

"Bakla ka anong nangyari sa'yo ba't parang stress na stress ka sa buhay mo?," Trix asked. We are already in the grocery store. I am the one who is pushing the cart.

"Sobrang daming ginagawa at iniisip. Dagdag mo pa si Gavin na miss na miss ko na." nakangusong ani ko.

"Gaga ka pala, eh. 'Wag mo na isipin muna 'yang si Gavin. Tignan mo naman sarili mo alagaan mo muna." i was caught off guard. Napa isip naman ako. Inuuna kong intindihin si Gavin kaysa sa sarili ko. That's how i love him.

"It's not easy, Trix. I felt like he's hiding something from me." i said with a disappointed voice. Promises are meant to be broken. I don't know what does Gavin is thinking.

Magbabayad na kami sa cashier nang may tumawag sa'kin. Binulungan ko na si Trix na magbayad na at hintayin na lang ako. "Gemini is that you?," napalingon naman ako and i was shocked. It was Gavin's Mother.

Nilapitan ako nito at ngumiti ng malawak sa'kin. "It's you long time no see. Omg you're still so pretty." i was shocked and clueless. What the fuck is happening i thought they are on a vacation?

"Hi tita, i missed you so much." i smiled at her even though i was shaking inside. She hugs me.

"I thought you're on a family vacation, Tita?," i asked her. Of course i need to know the truth.

She looks puzzled. "Huh what vacation?," and that's it. You need to explain Gavin. I am fucking pissed.

"Ah wala Tita medyo lutang lang ako. Iba pala 'yung tinutukoy ko." ani ko.

***

"Tangina Trix ano bang tinatago niya sa'kin?," i asked her and drink the shot of tequila. We're at the bar i asked her na samahan ako dahil galit na galit ako. I don't know kung pang ilang shot ko na 'to ang alam ko lang Gavin lied to me.

Trix looked at me with a worried face. "I don't know. Talk to him and ask him. That's all you can do." i laugh at her.

"He's not going to tell the truth, Trix." natatawang ani ko. I know Gavin too well.

"Baka naman nambababae na siya. Ayaw niya na sa'kin kasi nagsawa na?," i cried at Trix. Kung tama 'yung nga nasa isip ko then fuck him.

I felt dizziness and i felt like i am going to puke. I get my phone in my bag and call Gavin. Subukan niya magsinungaling at puputulin ko etits niya.

Trix is just looking at me and just observing.

Baby calling...

"It's 11 p.m why are still awake?," bungad nito sa'kin. I turned my volume into loudspeaker so that he can hear me that i am in a bar.

"It's 11 p.m, Gavin. And why the fuck did you lie to me?," i shout at him.

"You're drunk and you're at the bar?!" he said in a pissed tone. I don't care if he's mad because i am mad too.

I looked at Trix and tell her that i can manage this. "Answer me first, Gavin. Why the fuck did you lie?," i said almost crying.

"Where are you?," i shivered when i heared his deep pissed voice.

"None of your business fuck you!," i said then end the cal.

I burst into crying. Tangina Gavin ba't 'di mo masagot mga tanong ko? May tinatago ka ba talaga?

Niyakap naman ako ni Trix. "Hush everything will be alright..." she said to make me calm. But i can't calmdown. I know Gavin is doing something behind my back.

I am still drinking and i saw Trix is texting someone maybe Peter. I felt like i am numb right now. I am hurting but i felt nothing. My heart is used to this. When will i learn?

I stand up and i started dancing with the other people. Trix is trying to stop me but she can't.

"Let's go you're drunk, Gem." she said then she's pulling me but no. I want to dance.

Maya maya sumuko na si Trix. "Bakla ka ang sakit mo sa ulo." ayon ang narinig ko sa kanya bago may humila sa'kin papalayo. I met his dark gaze. And surprise it's Gavin what the fuck is he doing here?

I looked at him and i chuckled at him. "Oh i thought you're on a vacation? What are you doing here? Sisirain mo ba gabi ko?,"

He looked at me with a serious face and he started pulling me palabas ng bar.

"Bitaw tangina naman ano ba! Trixie Mei tulungan mo ako ano ba!," i shout but it has no effect on him.

He take me on his car. He aggressively close the car.

"What the fuck are you thinking?!," he said.

He's pissed and i know it. It's not my fault that he lied to me. "Nagsasaya ako sa bar para makakilala ng makaka one night stand ko, Gavin. Ayan masaya ka na?," i lied. I was shocked when he aggressively pulled me into his lap.

He started kissing me. And i can't do something i was stunned. What the fuck is happening?

"If you want this you could have said that.  I am always here..." he whispered. I felt a tingling sensation in my body.

(Sorry i can't write the bed scene ^.^)